i just found who she is... i mean y****. i was so disheartened. yun pala yung gamit nia na name sa dota. i don't want to see that name again. siguro selos? hello i wouldn't even think of using my BFF's name in dota?com'on kuya! kamusta ka naman? *sigh* i was sooooooo sad that time d na ako nakatulog. i tried to do the M-E-T-H. good thing i finished yesterday. (just passed to ony a little while ago)

well i can't blame him. even i loved my BFF soooo much up to the point i lost weight, made my hair straight, put on a good dress and even make up just for him... its just that we're both shy to admit what we really feel. now he's with some one else---i was full of regrets. why? i was the one who chose to not let go of our friendship. i sacrificed my feelings for him so that our closeness and being together won't change. i was afraid. if i told him them everything would end. i kept my feelings for him for 3 long years. siguro nga lang kay seiji kahit na sabihin mo pang 1 year lang yung kanya (i think) i feel d niya pa kayang bitwan feelings nia for her. it's sooooooo hard.

i was thinking "ano laban ko sa kanya gelo?..." i soooooo wanted to talk to my best friend again... i know kasi ganun na din pinagdaanan ng mga past gf's nia.---all jelous of me dahil nasa phone niya pic ko, i had a special name and sooooooo on. like this one time we swapped phones... "tart" was kish's name in there next to that was "tinapay" which is me. what the? i was quite shocked...

i laughed at their place and say "tssss! selos sila sakin? ganda ko kasi gelo eh idol mo ako. wala naman sila dapat ikaselos dahil we're best friends".... now like kish and the others it feels like this---"TOTAL PISS. like what the F? who is she ba?"... i started to understand bit by bit--- loosing to a person who had him a long time ago. who made his heart beat once and never forgot until now. who always had him even when he's already yours. i'm so disheartened yesterday when i was sooooooo angry when i saw her i want to cry and give up. oh gelo. look at this mess... :(

stupid heart---why do i need to fall for him? why jump of a cliff when you're already at the edge seeing the blue skies? maybe the view comming from below is much more sweeter. maybe the view below has so many hidden things that fills your heart with simple joys... and when everything falls down, maybe looking up and wishing you were there is a glimpse of hope...

sleep yesterday: 3 hours.

now: i look like crap... hai wala naman pasok bukas sagadin na nga pagka haggard.Ü

i just found who she is... i mean y****. i was so disheartened. yun pala yung gamit nia na name sa dota. i don't want to see that name again. siguro selos? hello i wouldn't even think of using my BFF's name in dota?com'on kuya! kamusta ka naman? *sigh* i was sooooooo sad that time d na ako nakatulog. i tried to do the M-E-T-H. good thing i finished yesterday. (just passed to ony a little while ago)

well i can't blame him. even i loved my BFF soooo much up to the point i lost weight, made my hair straight, put on a good dress and even make up just for him... its just that we're both shy to admit what we really feel. now he's with some one else---i was full of regrets. why? i was the one who chose to not let go of our friendship. i sacrificed my feelings for him so that our closeness and being together won't change. i was afraid. if i told him them everything would end. i kept my feelings for him for 3 long years. siguro nga lang kay seiji kahit na sabihin mo pang 1 year lang yung kanya (i think) i feel d niya pa kayang bitwan feelings nia for her. it's sooooooo hard.

i was thinking "ano laban ko sa kanya gelo?..." i soooooo wanted to talk to my best friend again... i know kasi ganun na din pinagdaanan ng mga past gf's nia.---all jelous of me dahil nasa phone niya pic ko, i had a special name and sooooooo on. like this one time we swapped phones... "tart" was kish's name in there next to that was "tinapay" which is me. what the? i was quite shocked...

i laughed at their place and say "tssss! selos sila sakin? ganda ko kasi gelo eh idol mo ako. wala naman sila dapat ikaselos dahil we're best friends".... now like kish and the others it feels like this---"TOTAL PISS. like what the F? who is she ba?"... i started to understand bit by bit--- loosing to a person who had him a long time ago. who made his heart beat once and never forgot until now. who always had him even when he's already yours. i'm so disheartened yesterday when i was sooooooo angry when i saw her i want to cry and give up. oh gelo. look at this mess... :(

stupid heart---why do i need to fall for him? why jump of a cliff when you're already at the edge seeing the blue skies? maybe the view comming from below is much more sweeter. maybe the view below has so many hidden things that fills your heart with simple joys... and when everything falls down, maybe looking up and wishing you were there is a glimpse of hope...

sleep yesterday: 3 hours.

now: i look like crap... hai wala naman pasok bukas sagadin na nga pagka haggard.Ü