If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
If I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life

Just don't understand where we went wrong
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you...



one wish.... one wish.... ahm... wish ko po ngayon ay sana po papa God.... eh, ipa open line na pow ako kasi po gusto q na pow mag globe... para po kay..... ahuhuhuhuhuhuhu... at isa pa po papa God, ang dami ko na pong ka text na globe. sayang po ang piso ko. piso din po yun. pandesal din po yun. papa God one wish... i pag globe niyo na po ako para po makausap ko po ulu siya at sila.... waaaaaaaaah... kaso nga langpag nag globe ako hindi rin ako tatantananan ng tawag at text ni... wa. wag na. nasusuka ako pag naalala ko... wa! sige na papa God... pag pinag globe niyo ako, magpapakabait na po ako. kakain na po ako ng gulay at fruits at ng pritong isda... *huhuhuhuhu...T_T* atsaka po hindi na po matigas ulo ko.... ahuhuhuhuuhu.. well... minsan pa po siguro.. atsaka po promise ko magaaral na me ng mabuti....


ay tenchu din pow kasi nahawakan niya po yung kamay ko.... ang lambot...^_^... kaya nga po bawal po hawakan ng iba yung kaliwang kamay kow.... ^_^ joWk lang po!!!!!!!!^_^ hehehe.... hindi ko na po siya gusto ngayon kasi po may bago na po akong crash...^_^... hehehehe... ayun lang pow... at ang panagalan niya po ay... ****... tiemple po chikret muna... ewan ko ba... hindi naman xia cute... eh ang cute naman ng ugali niya.. parang kuya OJ!!!^_^ yey! ilan na ba sa lahi nila naging crush ko??? let's take count

1. mr. track and field
2. v *stc daw puro tomboy, eh school niyo puro bading!*
3. m.Co.
4. *****....*go, picture!*
5. el...aye....ehemmmmm...*wa. crack it hindi naman halata eh...:) try... i'll give you a hundred bux if you guess it right!*
6. last..... si j..........o..............y..............down in my heart, deep deep down in my heart... :) jowke!!!^_^........ hahahahaha....wala na aq masabi eh. masiyahing tao aq...

ayun po!!! yey!!! ^_^ 6 in total ah??? kinilig naman aq bigla.... yessssssss! so cute talaga.... wahahahahahaha...:) ayoko na... :) yey! o xia tama na... mag goglobe na ako sa pasukan..... yipieeee....:)

okay... pinagawa me ng list 4 my debut... yak... debut.... hindi pala dapat debut ang tawag... :) BERTDAY BASH!!! so i'm inviting 25 people ONLY... yeah... only!!! :) woooooooooh!!! :D am so happy!!!:) scratch list lang toh hindi pa final... 88% sure na ako sa gusto ko makita at makasama

1. ches
2. kat
3. prix
4. dei
5. cha
6. rox
7. robs
8. dondee
9. reb
10. jason
11. hanna
12. baggie
13. jemes
14. ritz
15. janggeum
16. jung jong
17. joed
18. jessie
19. ramch
20. rchi
21. raffy
22. addi
23. pao
24. pinggoy
25. rjadz

yan!!!:) kaya free me a day... just one day.... grabe... ang d pumunta kakainin ko ng buhay!!!:) anyhoo... just got my grades.... shet...sermon na naman... tae... sila nalang magaral kung gusto nila!!!!>_<>

congratz to my sis... tae... wala ka parin bf???

kuya... tae ka rin, gradweyt ka na kups!!!

mike... tae ka rin..... lang ya..... :)

wa! gradweyt na kayo mga tae kayo!!!:) congratz..... bro's at sa mahal kong chi.... tencho talaga.... ah lav yah...:) *and for that, kain tayo sa labas! tae kayo!* ^_________^

ang mga bagay na mamimiss ko....


yung kilay ni prof. martin

yung mapa ni pelias sa likod

yung sermon ni peren

yung upuan ni golloso

yung "mam -ayoko- mag -pol sci" lecture
ni pastora

yung mga experiments kay prof. heidi

yung "monday! monday!" modules at
lectures ni MAM DALTON! *da best,
taena, try nio pasok dito baka
matanggalan kayo ng utak ng maaga...*

yung mga pamatay na tests ni sir jerry...
*masaya toh, kung ano yung saya...yun
ang hirap...ching!*


mamimiss ko rin syempre yung kainan
kina kuya at ate at kinila aling betchay...

mamimiss ko rin ang ever...*what ever* at
yung gowee.... *o2 jam/freestyle*,
mayhem *takbuhan ko ng dotA pag
tinatamad pumasok kay peren...*

pati narin yung mga "malilibog" na
upuan na puno ng kabastusan at mga
love quotes na walang ka kwenta kwenta
at nawawalang cellphone numbers...

pati na rin yung cubicle ng mga babae
na puno ng "HELP! TULONG! I HAVE A
PROBLEM!" *tae, desperate people*

pati yung mga pader na puro vandal at
ung mga table sa chem lab na puno ng
formula...

pari na rin yung mga patapon na
elevator sa TB at EB... nyahahahaha...
na umaalog at namamatayan ng ilaw...

mamimiss ko ng sobra... B05!!! taena,
pinaka malupit...sa lahat ng bagay...
kalokohan, garapal na cheating, talamak
na banat sa mga propesor, tulungan sa
mga exam, bonding at kakornihan...

lalo na kina *janggeum, yon sa, harlene,
chris, pakyu at sa ibang mga ka angkan...,
mudrax pullan at tin sa philo, sa grupo
nila jeorgia at lindol* sa inyong lahat...

at sa crush ko na umaalingid alingid lang
sa labas ng room namin.... pssst...*kilala
mo na kung sino ka...* hush....

salamat....


taena... BUHAY TAYO MGA 'TOL!!! ingat
kayo.... sa susunod uli....\m/





*april 1 kuhanan ng class card for AO5BO5.... EB 501 8:00-9:00 please wear proper uniform...

oh!!! i so missed writing... grabe! super hectic! but the good news is.... I'M DONE WITH MY FINALS!!!drat, mukang i can't join the dork list again... yey! i'm still freeking NORMAL! *sigh*

yesterday... OMG... I WENT INTO A TAOIST TEMPLE. well... i lit an insence and prayed to buddha to put myself at ease. well... it helped---alot. i also asked a question in which the Goddess of Pardon helped me. i asked to questions where in she answered in the temple through blocks and through sticks... yes. blocks and sticks.

Q1: should i transfer schools?
A: NO.
me: okay... th block said soooooooooooo..... oh goddess of pardon help me.

Q2: but, goddess of pardon, i really wanted to shift schools. i am not happy.
STICK no. 72: like a person who desires something, yo are compared to a person desiring for honey. getting it is so hard and you will experience a lot of problems.... just to get what you want. and in the end, it's not even advisable for you to continue.
A: NO.
me: so you really want me to stay? God and you said the same thing.... this is so kewl....^_^

i realized that christianism and taosism are almost the same... ^_^ i'm just so happy that everything was cleared and settled.


hai... so booooooooooring. we're gonna leave for bicol in about 2 weeks???^_^ for the whole april i think i won't be updating this blog.... sad... :'( i really miss my friends.... ^_^... hai.... i want to play dotA again and stay in kat's house and play dance dance revo!:) hihihihihihi...

hmm.... what else? ah! i'm not gonna see mr. chan anymore. sad. soooooo sad!!! hai, it's okei.... everything comes and goes... so for mr. chan... well thanks for everything. the times you made me go crazy and the times you just stood there and waited for me to come out. thanks for smiling. thanks for shoving another ray of sunshine in my life..... i wll never forget you. kudos jun.


hmmm.... as for my summer??? i can't think of anything else but TO PIG OUT AND SWIM!!!! yeah!!! that's kewl... very kewl.... one more day and i can happily rest..... ^_^.....

congratz to my sis!!! graduating ka na lola!!! yo better get used to wearing those "office lady attire". good luck with the AdMU juris prudence and to your SBC law exams... i wish you A HUSBAND... now na!!! ^_^ i want a pamangkin na.... hmmm....being a workaholic? i think i'll keep that thought hangin.... T_T... huhuhuhuhu....kiDDiN!!!:)

i've blogged hopped... well... i'm seeing the usual sites... but i'm happy when i came across this certain blog. for such a long time i haven't took a peak at that site. all i can say is... WOW.... i have made him write..... i am so happy. it's one of the most promising moments that i ever had. making a person write without forcing him to do so. yet as happy as i am, i can't help but be sad. all he writes about is anger, hate, people throwing comments that he wished they would burn in hell *that was harsh...a little...but it's okei...^_^*, moving on, not being pained again and so forth.... all i can read is an anger campaign against him. i really can't blame him. now he belongs to "i hate TIN for life".... yeah.... he bleongs now to one of the boys who are cursing and hating me for the nth time.... huhuhuhuhuhu... anu bang ginawa kong mali???T_T is it wrong to tell a person that you can't decide and friendship is all youwant "for now"? well, let's leave that for the people to judge.... ahihihih! for me i'm just being honest. i'd rather tell him early than tell him when it's to LATE? oh, poor him pag nangyari yun. so ako pa nagmukang "masama"??? at least i'm being true. well, i'm happy for him that his pouring everything out this summer. taking summer classes and doing alot of stuff. that's kewl and theraputic. he'll forget it....eventually....and i'm happy for him. oh did i mention that his latest post is the WORSE poem that he composed that i've ever read??? no offense.... totoo yun...^_^.... but we'll have to give a thumb up for his effort to write...^_^ ..... everyting is...

"done. stop. ate paki fast forward naman oh! kakasawa na kasi eh... inaantok na me... oh xia! tama na! play mo na!"

for SMART.... i hate you for EATING MY LOAD...i demand a refund.. NOW NA! joke... thank you... ^_^

for janggeum, jung jong is leaving. we are sad. but as he said, we need to be strong. aja!^_^





part 2...

on my way to taft, i noticed that it was so freekin traffic in kalaw.... damn it. i want to punch the guy sitting next to me with no reason at all... maybe it's the heat of the sun that got in my head. the fx won't move. i'm so freekin pissed. until i was in nakpil, i can't take it anmore. i walked. i noticed a pile of people in QUIRINO. i wonder what they were looking at......

danak ng dugo ng isang paru-paro

hindi sinasadya na napadaan ako... nakakita ako ng isang paru paro na nakalatag sa kalye. nawalan siya ng ulo at dumudugo. nakasuot siya ng maong at ng itim na t-shirt at hindi sinasadyang nabunggo ng isang pampasaherong bus. maniwala kayo, hindi ko talaga sinasadya makita. dumanak ang dugo sa kalye ng taft at ang mga tao ay nagdagsaan para makita nag paru paro. awa at takot ang magkagimbal na nararamdama ko ngayon sa nasabingnabanggang paru paro. kaawa awa. ayoko na makita pa ang kanyang labi na nakalatag sa kalye ng taft.

mga tunog ng sirene and aking naririnig at mga bungis ngis nga mga taong nagtipon. ale, eto po ang kasalikuang nagyayari. siguro pag dating ng bukas ay nasa dyaryo ka na at sikat. pero sa totoo lang....ang oras mo'y dumating. mukhang tinawag ka na Niya.... hindi man kita kilala, ale...sana matahimik ang kaluluwa mo sa mga oras na ito...


eternal rest grant unto her o Lord. and let perpetual light shine upon her. may she rest in peace..... Amen.

hai.... o, nagkasabay na naman kami umuwi.. kakainis na talaga.. pero ang cute ng likod niya!!! parang si.... ^_^ ahihihihihihihihi.... anyhoo... behlat...T_T.. ayoko na talaga.... bahala xia sa buhay niya.... beh! ^_____________^

uhm..... bitayi na natin ng patiwarik si ******...^_^....




jung jong.... alagaan mo sana si bebeh doll..... T_T.... janggeum...T_T....

time out muna... this is creepy.... sabi ko na nga ba na may third party kina papa...
that's why.... i was surprised that tito gus knew and my dad knew it too... this is creeping me out... really creapping me out.. tell me... how can i write my eco paper??? huh??? *waaaaaaaaaaaa!!!*


so okay.. i really don't know if i'm going to be happy, extatic or bummed out...

i was so surprised in english class.... i was looking for paper when jane yelled...


"KALEMBANG!!! PAPAER OH??? YAN KASI... PURO NALANH A*****!!! A*****!!! YAN TULOY!!!"

SO DIBA NAMAN KAMUSTA NAMAN DIBA??? BRADCAST SA CLASS NA I HAVE THIS CRUSH ON A*****??? nakahithit ng drugz mga tao samin... drat... and i'm saying...


"KUNG GUTSO NIYO SI A*****, SENYO NA!!! KAININ NIYONG BUHAY WALA AKONG PAKI! LAPAIN PA NG TIGRE YAN EH WALA AKONG PAKEEEEEEEEEE!! AYOKO NA KAY A*****!!!"

and jane went " WOSHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" alimasag went, "diba crush mo si A*****??? ayun siya ooo!!!!"... everyone was pulling me outside where he is... ako naman.. "AYOKO!!!!!!!!!!!! ANO BA!!!!!!! MAGSUSUBMIT PA AKO NG PAPER KAY PELIAS!!! LUBAYAN NIYA AKO!!!!" and all went.. "YEEEEEEEEEEEKIE!! KALEMBANG!!! SI A*****!!!"



sombody save me through this humiliation... even though i'm typing right now, i still can't forget his face... eh kasi naman....T_T.... i hate SHAIDER!!! give me a break people!!!



after that embarassing moment #23 i had this super irritated feeling yeat super kilig feeling about him... i really can't concentrate for my pol sci..... so i went out the classroom to play the guitar to ease my uneasyness..... then JC went out with me so that he could sing.....


so it went like this..

tin: *playing intro of a little bit*
JC: a little bit ba yan??? kakanta ako.... "i was kinda hesitant to tell you, should i let you know... i was never really like this before need i say moreeeeee..." *people rush out the room because classes at other countries are over*
tin: *pa simple looking for shaider....still continues to play the guitar... hears foortsteps drawing near her* "or maybe i'm confused when you are near me....."

i stop.... why??? HE WAS THERE!!!!!!!!!!!! CRIMENEY!!!! HELP ME!!!! then what i did was "TOTAL DEADMA"... he talked to janggeum... god knows what they talked about... then...

he went... *that's A****** "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!! GALING GALING!!!" *and he claps...*

tin: sino yun?
JC: oi, malandi ka.. ikaw pinapalakpakan ni A*****...
tin: huh??? bruha.. ikaw... ang galing mo kumanta noh???
JC: tange! Ikaw kaya yung nilapitan?
tin: hindi kaya??? ikaw!!! baliw ka talaga...
JC: gaga, ikaw yun... bitch ka talaga..
tin: HINDE AH!!!!
JC: ikaw nilapitan nun at para sayo yun...
tin: still continues to play the gutitar... "A*****.. nakakainis ka naman....>_< argh! alam na tuloy ng lahat!"


and adter that... i manage to survive my pol sci test...... waaaaaaaaaaaa... ayoko na... sa kanila nalang si shaider...T_T huhuhuhuh




hero: shaider
description: pulis pangkalawakan ng ahse department
super powers: uses charm to fight lizaso's gay minions i.e. para makatakas sa ilang kaso niya....



hai.. this guy is great...T_T just great...T_T... sombody give me a break...

shukas patatas...... i never knwe that pre-FINALS NAMIN SA PHILO today!!! so uber cram ako diba? kamusta ka naman diba???

i watched jewel and pbb yesterday... aww... tanggal na yung UP prof... :( she makes more sense than zanjo... and.... hohohoho... jharing jung jong and uhm.. yonsang... uhm.. made up... ^_^... and for that.. they will have a baby!!!^_^

in jewel's episode, lady min teaches yonsang how to react when she sees tha king... she told yong sang to full her body with yin and apply the puppy eye surprised look... and then i texted janggeum...

ladyhan: janggeum!!! nakita mo si lady min??? ^_^ ganyan dapat pagtitinganan ko si shaider!!! ganito!!!

'|o o|'
| 0 | <----ganito!!!

janggeum: oo lady han!!! ^_^ hahahaha! ganyan u dapat pag titingan si shaider!!! ahahahahahaha!!! kalembang ka talaga lady han! nagtext na ba si jung jong sa yo?
lady han: hindi pa eh.... T_T

we spent the night talking about mr. chan.. yaaaah... mr chan..... walk.... kumakalembang pangalan nuya kahit na san!!! T_T... plus i'm seeing him 4 days a week.. wachap are yo talaga... waaaaaaaaaa....... ayoko na!!! everyone knows about him... this is anoying..... na wrong send pa ako... ang dami ko kasi katext... cia pa lagi kong nakukuwento...


message for:

cha ramander
chan a*****

o diba??? ang LAPIT!! MALAY KO BA??? SAYANG PISO!!! T_T.... eew globe people.. sayang unli ng smart...T_T ahihihihihihih... waaaa.. and i'm gonna submit my paper in their classroom pa... come on down.... waaaaaaaa... tigilan niyo na po sana ang pangaasar.....T_T......

http://members.iinet.net.au/~pontipak/redsquare.html... beat mok's reacord.... 28.678 seconds....




gotta snap out of it...

aside from my jun-escapades i'm also concerned about janggeum and haring jung jung...


well, let me give you the scenario.... ehem...

1
2
3....


start...


one upon a time, there named a girl janggeum. she had a cute boyfriend and very cute one indeed.. they had their feelings... the usual BF-GF stuff.... like all realtionships that end, theirs is one of those who are less fortunate. she loved him so much that up to know he she can't forget about him.

after sometime, janggeum decided to enter "the palace". there she met haring jung jung, becuase of her wit and kidness, haring jung jung loved her. janggeum was surprised that she was starting to like the king as well. all of the king's subject new about the king's feelings for janggeum. her friends to knew about what was happening with them and immediately her fellow servants teased her closness to the king.

janggeum didn't know what to do and immediately texted lady han. they talked about the king's feelings and they talked about her own situation. lady han supported janggeum all the way saying that haring jung jung is unfair. lady han tried to talk to haring jung jung at their political science period.

part 1: lady han asks---janggeum and haring jungjung

HJJ: bakit ka andito?
LH: kasi po, gusto ko pagusapan natin si janggeum at ang aking problema.
HJJ: ano ba yun?
LH: ano bang nararamdaman mo kay janggeum?
HJJ: ah... yun ba kamo???
LH: oo ****... sabi mo pupunta ka na ng london.. totoo ba yun?
HJJ: hindi pa sigurado yun... kanino mo naman nakuha yun?
LH: sa ispiya ko... pero kahit na... sabay ka na sa enrollment namin nila janggeum.... wag mo kami iwan!
HJJ: oo ba... *smiles...*
subject----dan02: bakit kasi hindi mo na ligawan??
LH: oo nga naman **** kang kong!!! bakit nga ba hindi???
HJJ: komplikado kasi ang sitwasyon.
LH: mareresulba yun!!! ako pa??? gusto mo kausapin ko si janggeum para sayo???
HJJ: hindi na kailangan...salamat nalang... sa totoo lang... kuntento na ako ng ganito..
LH: *draws at the table stick figure* HUH??? addik ka ba??? anong sinasabi mo na KUNTENTO KA NA SA GANITO??? walng kunte kuntento!!!*l.o.l.*
HJJ: kuntento na akong ganito...magkaibigan kami...
LH: nasisiraan ka na ba??? naka drugz ka ba??? bakit naman??? kitangkita ng lahat na gusto niyo ang isa't isa!!! BALIW KA NA BA???
HJJ: hindi naman sa ganon... kasi... sa totoo lang.... mahal ko siya... gusto ko siya.. pero ayoko ligawan siya.. baka tanggihan niya ako..
LH: yun lang ba? sige! aayusin ko yan...
HJJ: hindi na kailangan..... justine... kasi.... kuntento na ako sa ganito.
LH: PAANO MO MALALAMAN KUNGHIDI MO SUSUBUKAN!?? tsaka paano mo alam na HINDI KA NIYA SASAGUTIN!! MALAY MO DIBA???
HJJ: oo nga... pero kasi.... ayoko mapalayo damdamin ko sa kanya.... torpe na sa torpe.... pero ganun talaga... atsaka.... ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya ay hindi na kailangan umabot sa relasyon.
LH: pinapalampas mo ang pagkakataon... sayang!
HJJ: kasi.... hindi lang yun... magkAKAILANGAN KAMI pag nangyari yun...
LH: sa bagay may punto ka..
HJJ: at isa pa....
LH: ano yun?
HJJ: masyado mabait si jangguem para saktan ko
LH: awwwww.... ***** naman... ang sweet naman niyan... naiiyak ako...
HJJ: wag ka naman umiyak.... *smiles*

*** end of part 1 talk


after hearing haring jung jung's explanation, lad han immediately talked to janggeum.... the converstaion was sad..... it was heavy.... finally.... lady han hugged janggeum... "andito lang ako para sayo"... after that.... although pain stricken, jangguem continues to be happy everyday. she still keeps on talking to haring jung jung... and they both lived happily ever after every M, T, Th and F.... from 9:00-7:30 in the evening... ^_^ the end...

wow!!! what a psyched storrrrrrrrrrry... ^_^ ahihihihihi... jewel in the palace ah??? ^_^... anyhoo... ahihihihihi.... ^_^.... i still manage to survive.... all i know is... i'll be forver their loyal friend.....


haring jung jung... janggeum magpatulog nawa sana kayo... ^_^.... miss yah!!!\m/


but no!!!! wait!!! there's more!!!^_^


part 2... lady han tells...


LH: kasi... alam ko na nararamdaman niya at ang inaasal niya...
HJJ: sino???
LH: kasi ganito yun ****... may best friend ako.. acutaully 3 sila... eh nagkataon na nagkagusto siya sakin...
HJJ: mahirap yun..
LH: eh sa tingin niya, nabusted ko siya maibabalik pa kaya yun?
HJJ: hindi na maibabaalik yun...
LH: ****!!! ibabalik ko yun kahit na anong mangyari!!!
HJJ: maibabalik mo nga kaso, mahirap....
LH: ganun ba yun???
HJJ: tin, pakawalan mo na...
LH: HINDI KO KAYA YON AT HINDING HINDI KO GAGAWIN YUN!! naiiyak na naman ako.. siya na naman iniisip ko... sa totoo lang... ginawa ko na lahat at kinausap ko siya... hindi pa kasi ako handa kasi.... una, hindi pa siya pumapasok sa isipan ko. pangalawa, masaya na ako sa kung ano ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.
HJJ: ano naman yun???
LH: yung pakiramdam ko na mahal na mahal ko siya pero ni hindi talaga pumasok sa isip ko na maging kami...
HJJ: ahhh.. magkaparehas lang pala tayo nila janggeum...
LH: at isa pa ****, naisip ko rin na baka maraming tao ang magulat sa nalaman nila... at ayoko rin makasakit ng iba lalo na yung dati niyang niligawan... isa sa mga pinaka close kong friend yung dati niyang niligawan..... ayoko maging dakilang harang...
HJJ: aaaah.... naiintindihan kita....
LH: pero hindi ko na talaga alam gagawin ko... para sa kanya binusted na ko daw siya.... eh, may sinabi ba ako na hindi pwede maging kami???
HJJ: parang ganun na nga ang datin tin...
LH: eh kaysa malaman niya kung kelan ang layo na ng panahon diba???
HJJ: may punto ka nga, atleast totoo ka sa nararamdaman mo...
LH: ayoko magpaka plastik sa kanya..... best friend ko siya no kaya kailangan sabihin ko.. pero kahit na ilang beses ko siya kausapin, hindi niya maintindihan!
HJJ: siya na ang problema...
LH: ayoko maniwala na siya ang problema.. feeling ko ako ang problema! hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa kanya.... nasasaktan na kasi ako... ginawa ko na lahat....
HJJ: E di kausapin mo...
LH: sinabi ko na lahat sa kanya....... umabot pa sa puto na sa sobrang inis namin sa isa't isa eh nagka gulangan pa ng mga tropa... ang pangit nun...
HJJ: eh.... ang kitid naman pala ng utak niya.
LH: HA??? seryoso ka??? naka drugz ka ba??? ****... ayoko parin maniwala na makitid ang utak niya... napakabait niya... maniwala ka sakin... sobra....
HJJ: oo tin naniniwala ako na mahal m siya ata naniniwala din akong mabait siya... pero ito naman itanim mo sa utak mo.... WAG NA LANG SIYA ANG INIISIP MO PALAGI!
LH: huh??? hindi ko kaya ****.. hirap na hirap na ako... hindi na ako nakakakin ng matino.. wala pa akong matiwasay na tulog....
HJJ: ayan ang hirap sayo... puro ko tiis at sakripisyo.. na sa sobrang kakalala mo sa tao, nakakalimutan mo sarili mo...
LH: anong ibig mong sabihin?
HJJ: *tells her story about her uhm....10 x's...* pero sa totoo lang.... lagi ako nagtitira kahit kaunting pagmamahal sa sarili ko....
LH: *** HINDI KO KAYA NA IWAN SIYA....
HJJ: ito ang kailangan mong malaman.... masakit... pero kailangan mong gawin....
LH: ha???? ****, sinusubukan ko.... totoo.... pero hindi talaga....
HJJ: pabayaan mo na siya... kung gusto ka niya layuan, pabayaan mo..
LH: ***! nasasaktan na ako....hindi ko talaga kaya!
HJJ: wala kang magagawa.... ganayan talaga... may mga bagay na kelangan gawin para sa ikabubuti mo at para narin sa kanya...
LH: ****... masakit...
HJJ: eh, mahal mo eh....
LH: sabagay... salamat....
HJJ: smile naman jan! ha??? andito lang naman kami ni janggeum para sayo...
LH: at dahil jan, tumabi ka sakin tomorrow sa chem at pakokopyahin kita sa FINALS NATIN SA CHEM
HJJ: seruoso ka? wow! SALAMAT!
LH: oo.. kasi... eto lang ang maibabayad ko sa lahat ng kabutihan mo sakin.... d ko to makaklimutan...........

yun na nga yun.... pinakila ni krizzy si jun sakin... ako naman tong praning at kalahati na tumatakbo at hinahanap si doanne para umails at umuwi.... guhlay... hiyang hiya a ako sa kanya.. as in!!! pwede na ako lagyan ng paperbag sa mukha ko with a capital "L" for looser in my forehead.... this is what i hate most. me having a crush and the whole world knows.... what the heck? i'm gonna have a heart attack.... T_T... huhuhuhuhu... i hate this.... it's like my heart beats soooooooooooo fast whenever he's around... what the heck???

okai.. this has a scientific explanation..... my oxytocin and derpaphine are all giving me the badjaperz to this guy.... why is that so??? my brain recognizes some one very important and automatically every person that she sees that reminds her of "that" person....becomes what i so called CRUSH i.e. physical infatuation

okei.. i want to kill my freekin jigahoo brain for associating everything to that person.... tuloy... i have this huge curhsyness on jun.... arghhhh!! any way, the sem is ending and i'm not gonna see him!!! isn't that a plus? and i also save my face for another sem of humiliation infront of him!!! mabuhay!!!^_^ ahihihihihi... and besides.... i seem to forget jun na..... as in..... ayoko na sa kanya... promise...as tomorrow starts... abstinence kay jun.... forgot....sid is in here.... ^_^ oh joy!!!! oo nga pala.... abstinence..... grabe..... %_%...... i hate men... they distract ang they mak you FAT.... ^_^..... yipee!!! ^_^...

ps..... eco test is out... yipee!!! more time to study....^_^

song: make it real u-turn

mood: no apettite... i'm in the state of nothingness...

In a dream you are hereyou smile and hold me near and in my heart i'll pretend that you are here again hear me cryin' out to youyou said, "never, never would i leave "here's a tear from me to you and maybe it will make you hear me



hai, i'm very tired today.... i'm still going to make my business letter.... mom celebrated her bday last saturday.... TONG YANG escapades na ito!!! ^_^... i'm so full!!! unlimitted drinks, sefood, meat, ICE CREAM halo halo... hai... i can live in that restaurant forver!!!


so i talked to dean the other day... by gosh by golly! he knows about... you know who... *dean... mamang pasaway.... walang laglagan kay... T_T....* after he freeked me out the other day.... i d ecided to kill dean the next time we meet... neh??? ^_^....miss yah honey!!!^_^ *woshooo!!! yeekie dean... ^_^*


hmm... i really can't focus today.... i find it hard to breath lately...i can't sleep.. i lost my apettite for the past few days.. *well except for saturday, that was a miracle..*, and everything is sooooooooooo... i dunno... empty??? *empty spaces, are empty sapaces...* T_T.... hai....*labo..*


lui texted me again... he told me "tin wag ka munang magpapaligaw at baka masaktan ka ng mga yan... miss you" <------like what the hell??? so okay, after i've knocked some sense in his uhm... "brain"... he still managed to remember what i did to him... i want to kill lui for the second time, and this time... i'm gonna finish the job... oh.. together with anton.... >_<... magsama kayo... mga walang magawa sa buhay...! anyway.. yipeeeee!!! i'm currently negotiating my "archery" training this summer.... ooooh! this is gonna be fun! well, i think i'm gonna see him again...^_^.... from beda, sabay kami puputa ng cubao... that would be wicked!!!^_^ yipee!!! i'm so excited to finally hold a bow and an arrow... hmm... what else??? "first time is saw you, you look wonderful... i've never seen you look so fine..." hai...wan't to tell him this... ^_^ ahihihihihi.. they are having their grad practices... ^_^ ohohohoho... goodluck chong!!! knowing you batang puyatin ka eh... ^_^... ahihihihihi... even hired katherine to know who i am... yeah right mehn!!!^_^.... bitayin kita ng patiwarik jan eh... ^_^ hmmm....


random thoughts... well... aside what happend the past month... i'm so depressed... my avergae is far from scholarship... way far.... i'm too emotionally disturbed to study.... aw.... goodbye scholarship... hello looser.... i really don't know what to do.. it seems that everything i do is connected to him.. always... i can't sleep, can't study well... i might as well die..... i feel like i'm to girly to function... argh... i hate this... it seems that ireallly don't know what to feel for him..

whether i should be angry for letting him spill the beans in my life... which is a major pain because i told him everything....

whether i should feel pity for him

wheather i should be happy for him

whether i should be guilty

whether i should be lonely...

i dunno.... i want to start crying and crying again... i hear "lunes" by sponge cola... it reminds me of ateneo hs.. the times i studied physics and algebra together with cp, nino, mok, dondee, ib, erika, king, and gelo.... ohohohohoho... fun times... ^_^.... and whenever i would meet up with mommy kat i remembered one time when daddy dondee, gelo, mommy and me would debate whether "boys are RAPED".... crimeney... ^_^... ang tagal nun ah??? ^_^... miss ko na si mommy at daddy at gelo at cheska at prix at mama dei... oh!!!!^_^...

hmmm... what else?? i can't fina an article for health services... crimeney, looks like i'm gonna cram this one out... ajaness!!! argh....plus i'm going to report for fil.... badjaperz talaga oh???


hai... nobody is interested to read my blog.... lola na ata kasi ito.... oh!!! that reminds me, i made a new one and the address is http://www.******08.blogspot.com ,------for the people who wants to know the real url, text me... my number in 0920******* thanks!!! ^_^ ahihihihihi.. no kid... i have a new blog.... ^_^.... and it's for my uper duper super mega over wonderlistic friendships... for those interested...i'm just one call away...


anyhoo... enough about the hibijibies.... ^_^.... nakakasawa na talaga...^_^.... anyway.. i want to sleep for a change... feeling ko i've greatly sinned that's why he won't let me sleep... papa God, maxiado na ba ako lunok sa tongits lalu na pag kalaban si papa??? or si myles??? T_T huhuhuuhu....



hai............ i donno what to feel.... i think therefore i'm single! jowke.. i think this is what you call numbness..... nothing to feel..... just that big sting right there...




i was sitting near the window of the coffee shop. a man drenched in rain was standing still. cold and alone. i kept on staring at his back. i thought that his back was familiar. the man turned back. to my surprise, there he stood. crying. i immediately went outside and gave him the newspaper that i was reading to shelter him from the rain. he immediately hugged me... he roughly whispered in my ears... "it's done.... it's over..." i was so surprised. my world spined.... round and round.. immidate flashbacks came into me... i felt the cold... i felt his bitterness...i felt his loneliness... the rain just witnessed how my heart stopped and think that for once.. benevolence and selfishness can be at parr..... at the right time... or is it???

dean... you are sooooooooooooo dead... next camp, better get ready for bags of chips ahoy.... AND I MEAN IT.... now i wonder how i'm gonna sleep.... thanks alot dean... T_T

check this out.....http://media.spikedhumor.com/8944/Jingle_Bells_Reversed.swf that is if you have time.....


grabe.... dean.... T_T... not funny....T_T huhuhu............. ay!!! answer my johari window ah??? ^_^... it's on my links, just click it "links" and scroll down....


what happend to kuya jeff??? awwwww..... miss yah guys...^_^

song: Love Team Itchyworms
mood: oops... pare, d pwede...kug sabihin kong pare din ako??? ^_^ *jowke...*

‘di...‘di naman talaga
Tayo mag-sinta
Pero gusto nila
Kahit ayaw mo
Bagay raw tayo
‘di naman totoo
Mga yakap mo
Pang-eksena lamang ito
‘di nila alam
Na nababaliw na ako sa iyo
‘di ko na yata kaya ‘to
Ang aking lihim na pakay
Ay ang lahat na ito'y gawing tunay

Chorus
Sana wag mo kong sisihin
Kung ‘di ko kayang pigilin
"Sabi mo na mahal mo ko
Ngunit ‘di naman seryoso"
Sana ay magkasingkulay
Ang drama at tunay na buhay ko
Ang tanging pag-asa ko
Ay nasa tambalang ito

Si...sinungaling ka
Kapag may tao
Ay nilalambing mo ako
Ngunit pag wala
Ay sumasama
Turing mo sakin
Ay parang hangin
Bitin na bitin
‘di nila alam
Na sa dulo ng tagpo
‘di na patok mga linya mo
Nag-iiba ang iyong asta
Hanggang sa susunod na eksena




i want TO SCREAM!!! RIGHT NOW!!! SHIT KAM BULI NI INA MO!!! PAROTON KA MAN SANA LUI!!!! HAVE A LIFEEEEEEE!!! this is so shitty.... i CAN NOT BELIEVE NA HE CALLED ME "SWEETIE"???? I WILL KILL YOU..... I SWEAR!!!! AND HE SAID NA..... "PRINSESSA" DAW AKO.. YEAH??? AND SOOOO???? WILL SOMEBODY KILL ANTON AND LUI!!!! KAPAL NANG MUKHA..... TELL ME "I LOVE YOU" AND "MISS YOU" AND "SWEETIE"???? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THNKING???? HUH??? YOU REALLY WANNA DIE??? HAO XIAO!!! PIAO SI!!!!>_<.... what the hell is their problem huh???? CHO-DA!!!! HUH??? HUH??? ADDIK BA SILA???? HUH??? HUH??? HUH??? ARGHHHH!!!! i want to kill myself... right now... those guys just won't stop???>_<... kung pwede lang magpa surgery kay vicky bello ng hindi na nila ako makita eh!!! that's it... it just went into my nerves and poof!!! d ko kinaya yun....

so feeling niyo naging "TAYO"??? huh??? kapal talaga ng mga mukha.... and a guy says.. "tell me honestly what yo feel" and i go "what the heck are you talking about?" and he replies... "sa ating dalwa" and i went "o_O? huh? naka drugz ka ba? addik ka?" and i tell them na i don't like them.... arghhhh.... they are like chick boys where girls make habol to them basically because

1. chinito
2. mayaman
3. a car

liek what the hell pare??? huh??? and so i care??? eh addik pala kayo... shunge na girl lang papatol sainyo eh.... *buti nalang matino pa ako..*... eh sorry sila...kahit ilang bulaklak at chocolates pa yan... hindi ko tatanggapin yan.... why?

a. I HATE FLOWERS
b. NAPAKA PASE NA NG CHOCOLATES AND F.Y.I. I LOVE STRAWBERRY BELTS...

arte no? anyway... begging in front of me won't save your sorry ass... argh!!! so kung pwede lang??? lubayan niyo na ang kaluluwa ko!!! let me rest in peace... damn it.... this is great... just great.... and i'm not yet done studying for my S.A. what the hecky wecky??? argh!!! exterminating guys are a pain in the ass.....

like being with those two guys are fun.. but there's somthing that they did that crossed my limits.... huh??? those who go with me are in a gamble... a real gamble.... it's either...

a. i dump your sorry ass to hell
b. i burry you in your school
c. u end up being my friend
d. u end up being more than a friend....

i'm like a mine.... ready to explode.... damn it... so for lui and anton??? give it up guys.... our future doesn't even spell "TAYO"... ^_~ neh??? so quit the paawa effect on me??? huh??? if i have to die "SINGLE FOR LIFE" eh gagawin ko... just not be with yuh neh???

and besides.... okie... i'm all kewl now... anyhoo... i'm sure i'm not the girl you're looking for... you're meant for greater things....^_^.... well, i appreciate all those things you've given and done for me... but guys... i really don't like you like you... get? and it's super hard for me.... when i thought i finished the job.... i was wrong... hai..... it's super hard.... guys.... i hope you understand.... i'm not interseted. even if you leave your number for me to text you??? it's still a no... no... neh??? so please.... i want to reast.....neh??? my problems are piling up bit by bit, please.... please.... please.... it's a N.O.


i want to cry again... what the hell is wrong with them? what weird thing did those guys along with the other guys found in me??? huh???

1. i am ugly
2. i am fat
3. i'm a nerd
4. i go straight to to the point
5. i'm not spoiled compared to those guys...

the freekin problem is.. they are so spoiled... lahat nalang bnibigay sa kanila... pano? kasi may pera... it's time for you to know that you can't buy a person or the person's love neh??? paki ko ba kung anak ka ng presidente ng multi national company??? huh??? shukas patatas...


hai.... i wish you happiness..... and i'm going to study again for my S.A..... ciao...

Buwan..... itchyworms...

"Naninikip ang tiyan
Nakatingin sa buwan
Malayo pa wala ng magawa

Hawak ang 'yong kamay
Wala kong kaakbay
Nasa'n ka na kaya

Parang kahapon lang
Tayo ay magkayakap
Sa ilalim ng buwan"

AS IF YOUR FRIENS DIDN'T SAY THAT I'M INSENSITIVE? OR HARSH? HUH? okai.. and you don't call that back bitting...i'm guilty of that... question is are you??? hai... you know what? that's it.... go.. panalo ka na..... you win!!!^_^ ain't that great? my only wish for you is that i hope you are soooooooooooooooooo happy seeing me like this... and i hope to see you more HAPPY because i'm gonna suffer more..... double pain.... ain't that a plus? ^_^ i'm the big bad wolf and you're like the little red hooded girl who happily skips in the forest.............


this i'd like you to know..... i love you... much as i have loved both ches and gelo.... you guys are one of the best things i've ever had... loosing you.... hurts big time... and if ranting for you is theraputic? go..... it's still a democratic country diba? ^_~ i'm gonna stop crying.... because no matter home much i cry... you won't hear me..... you won't even care..... no matter how much talk and cry to auie all day long, she would just smile at me.... and hug her over and over again until i can sleep at about 2:30 A.M. i want to find peace in my heart and my soul.. my thoughts.... and so... even if you won't even ask for forgiveness.... inside of me.... i'm healed.... i already forgave you.... and i hope that goes for me too.... *well i hope, knowing you eh... mahirap... ayt??^_^* i decided to let it go.... do whatever you want to do.... say what you want to say..... i still care for you... even if you wish for me to forget you? i won't.... i will forever cherish those moments.... those fun times..... even though i'm crying, remebering those makes me smile... i thought that memories of those are enough to treasure for a lifetime.... neh? i don't want to be angry.... becuase i'm beginnging to be selfish... at ayoko ng ganun.... i should understand you more.... like it's my job for months na right??? hmmm.... it's high time i extend my patience and understanding.... i feel this is so shallow.... these are things caused by misunderstanding.... and for me? i won't let it ruin what we have..... i feel happy right now.... why? it's not that i forgot or hate you or somthing.... it just knocked in to me that.... you really need time..... well to see things in a larger perspective... that these are mere shallow things.... mga problema na hindi dapat pinoproblema...... or somthing... i don't know...... baka magkaiba tayo ng perspective. whatever your descicion is, go..... i will understand it.... 100%... and i'll back you up too.... ^_^.. even if that means... forgetting me... sure thing.... i undertsand.... neh? hai..... pards ko, mahal na mahal ko kayo.... ^_^... so...... there..... i want to stop sulking na.... ^_^... kasi it won't do me any good.. para lamang tayong mga batang nagpaparinigan sa blog.... that's it.... okies??? i said i'm sorry for like weeks ago.. and i will say it again....

pards... sorry.... last drop na toh..... ^____^ if you won't forgive me, fine....i understand.... all i know is.... i'm happy again.... ^_^ kasi.... i know na despite your wrongs and mine... i manage to come up to a conclusion.... don't let simple things get in your tea pot... ^_^.... hai.. marami pang maganda sa buhay natin... :D and, this is just a mere obstacle na all best friends and friends experience.... ^_^.. so naglevel up ako ah???^_^ *yeah, parang ragna lamang...* anyhooooooooooooooooo...... Godbless... hope to see yah real sooooooooon.... ^_^




P.S. anton won't stop noh??? argh....darn it... it's like he's back from the dead.... well i thought i burried him elsewhere...ah!!! binaon ko SIYA SA TAFT!!! now i rememebred... and yes...i'm like a haunted...this is bad... real bad.... T_T... naman anton... i don't.. for like the nth time... i don't like you... i dooooon't.... i doooooooooooon't... so can you please let my soul rest in peace??? huh??? huhuhuhuhu.... it's like im in the revenge of the sith.... juice ko naman.... oh??? argh... as if lui isn't enough.... curse that guy.... pacute? ewwwwwww.... >_< nakakainis na... pag ako naiinis, gugulpihin ko lahat ng taong may gusto sakin, and i mean it....i wish they would just leave me alone.... T_T... if they miss me soo much why don't they have other girls and like remake their faces para hindi na ako anghuntingi nila ah??? arghh..... what a piss.... *woshooo.....:D* nyahahahahaha... i sound like a man... oh my... ^_^ brutal ang lola mo!^_^.. anyhooo...


damn it...what's his problem??? he just said.... "i love you..." ohohohoho... anton? not that easy.... it's like FINDING A HAY IN A NEEDLE STACK... over my dead body.... ^_~ neh??? and i won't buy that words.... dont tell me you feel the same way after 3 years? come on.... sombody shoot this guy..... he should be in the dark movie you know??? an exchange??? juice me.....naiinis na ako.... anyway... enough about him.... wa ako pake...^_________^ alam ko..... and now he's sulking again.... and i told him na i know... ^_^.... and.... i don't love him love him...i just appreciate his feelings for me.... guhlay..... so hard to be a girl...100%....




i don't know... i need to go to binondo na and pray to buddha for a happy life... pray for my family and friends... pray for myself that i may find peace....




kudos to paolo for making me smile.... what a nice story... two thumbs up!^_^
and to lloyd.... hmmmm.... intersting..... ^_^
king cheer up neh??? dito lang kami ni gracie for you...

janggeum.... otei lang yan, infatuated ka lang siguro kay recca... mahirap talaga... pero sana pagisipan mo muna yung talagang nararamdaman mo... tsaka, mahal niya ata si tal... hanggang ngayon... ikaw naman yung ex mo...mahirap pagnakikita mo x mo sa taong d mo sinasadyang mahulog... kasi, ako... nagkaganun din.... ^_^... soul sistah!!!^_^, btw.... finals ah??? lady han at janggeum tag team... ^_^...

song: don't say goodbye juana
mood: just not yet... i'm still dancing with my prince wanna be..... built by the wind, blown by the wind..




"Didn't mean to hurt you badly, Don't think that I am fooling around with you So sorry for the time you've wasted on me, So sorry for the things that you've went thru But I know that the problem's with me, You're so nice but your love don't deserve me Or maybe I'm just so scared to fall in love again"



oh my, i think i'm being attached at jay's mp3.... i like his songs.... found out that we have he same taste... from u-turn to juana to luxurious and all that r n'b pimpi'n suff....

i can't think of anything else to write.... i can't sleep yesterday.... all i did was cry and cry.... can't think clearly right now. i feel like it's my fault... always is... good thing i talked to mama dei...i feel a little better but not quite... i really need a break. i need to focus more on my sutudies.

this is just wacked.... i have a new name.... aside from "krung krung" i have a new name, "kalembang" crimeney... for the love of fish cakes.....

krizz: justine, d ka na krung-krung/tuliling!

me: huh???0_O? ano pinagsasabi mo??

krizz: gago! kalembang ka na! malala na ata sayad mo!

me: pakyu ka lamang krizzy!!!>_<

and so the "kalembang" name spread..... and just after philo, i hear them calling me kalembang..... oh what the hell??? ahahahahahahaha..... ^_^... this is just great... hahahaha, aside from that, i need to study for pol sci.... what the f??? what a day...... i'm gonna sleep MY WEDNESDAY and maybe this time, i can sleep without crying.... or.... having phlegms.... yehey!!!

P.S. anton sent me a message again in my YM.... i'm so freekin pissed, that guy just won't stop? he say's he misses me.... oh... and i'm the Queen of England... not buying that anton... you would have to kneel infront of me and beg your sorry ass... over my dead body....

"i'm crying now because i am hurt.... after a week, rest assured i'm going to forget you... bit by bit... and maybe i can forget everyhing about you..."

song: narda kamikazee
mood: yehey...... artistahin parin ako... i love me... *so much foe being a narcissist..* hahahahaha.....










10. Go for more Dota
9. stop immersing myself in extra-curricular activities *kapagod...*
8. Start listening to sermons *yeah, it's lent season*
7. Cut down caffein *parting from monodor is so freeekin hard.... ooops, caffein rush!!!*
6. give more...
5. take it slow
4. Start practicing being more soft *yeah!^_^ marshmellow na ito!*
3. Study Harder *one big finals!*
2. sleep more and bumm myself out this whole summer and curl my hair so i look like NIKKI!!! *wooooooooooo!!!^_^.... ang poga mo intsekitay!*
1. Stop immersing self in SELF PITY! *yeah, i snaped back to reality...*



hai..... so we made the ice cream... when we were in pureza station i wondered why dan went down..... and left tala and me...shukas... MUNTIK NA AKO MAPUNTA SA PASIG!!! it was my first time to ride that freekin jeep...T_T good thing tala told me that we're going to pasig na.... say what???

*by gosh by golly gulay, and the song ofr the jeep is such a feekin piss..... lookie....song: sakto ikaw ang gusto ko parang datu puti suka at toyoooooooooooo.... what the hell??? shoot meeeeeeeee...*

so we were makin the ice cream... like me and tala have to pay for the materials.... so i'm so bankrupt today...tpos, when i arrived at bernie... ay gudluck, santa na naman ang lola mo.... i made the ice cream... T_T pati yung kinila ira.... oh men!!! T_T.... when can i stop being an "alipin"??? huh??? i'm like soooooooooooooo freekin pissed!!! anyhoo.... it's okie because we had that "bondin-for-a-day" with dan and king... yeahey!:D


so here i am... sitting and writing stuff with my favorite... ana caram.... yeah..... one of my greatest wish is.....



to go to brazil with a guy.... and dance to the beat of the night... yeah.... and be with the waters......... pray to Imanje..... with the moon shinning down.... yeah!!! ^_^... nice... planning honey moons... wahahahahahaha!!!:D *all paolo cuelho's fault*

come to think of it... i always see brazil having a sensual feeling.... i feel it's a city of passion........ where waves and smooth jazz collied..... yeah... :D



so there.... i talked to ramch..... as usual..... "BINABAGYO AKO!!!" nyahahahahahaha!!!:D oist ramch, wag mong icareer yan ah? wakokokokoko.... and mama dei... i really miss mama dei and the times that i ruin her "beauty sleep" just to tell my problems with gelo, or cheska, or anyone of them.... hahahaha... from school wok to family problems...... hai....so this is how our conversation went...


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tin-tin: mama dei!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tin-tin:
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: tin!!!!!!
tin-tin: mommy, may problem ako..
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: waaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
deam_rose10: musta na?
tin-tin: d ko na alam gagawin ko...
tin-tin: may itatanong ako...
deam_rose10: y? watsa matter?
tin-tin: diba bestfriends kami ni cheska tapos kayo ni pirx???
deam_rose10: yupperz..y?
deam_rose10: nag-away b kayo?
tin-tin: diba hindi all the time nagpapansinan kami??
tin-tin: right?
tin-tin: or kio ni prix diba?
tin-tin: xiempre kinakausap mo rin ako right?
tin-tin: si kat?
tin-tin: sila sila?
tin-tin: diba???
tin-tin: this is so unfair...
tin-tin: naiiyak na ako...
tin-tin: lookie...
tin-tin: Im only you're bestfriend when we're texing or talking on the phone. But whenever we're with them, it's like I disappear... as I've always said, "ANG BESTFRIEND, HINDI NASASAPAWAN NG IBANG FRIENDS. KAHIT NA KASAMA NIYO BARKADA NIYO, HINDI MO SIYA HAHAYAANG MALEFT OUT BY STICKING WITH YOUR ******** 'EX'-CRUSH"(Take note, "ex-crush"... YEAH RIGHT AND YOU TOLD ME NA U GOT OVER YOU'RE LAST BESTFRIEND. TELL IT TO SOMEONE MORE GULLIBLE AND STUPID) Damn it... I have to stop...

BUZZ!!!
tin-tin: yep??
tin-tin: diba??
tin-tin: mama dei ang sama niya...
tin-tin: hindi si cheska yan ah....
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: cno b?
tin-tin: si jessie yun...
tin-tin: unfair...
deam_rose10: how can i help u if u wont tell me what's going on?
tin-tin: yun na nga yun..
tin-tin: thing is...
tin-tin: eto yung sibabi niya..
tin-tin: Im only you're bestfriend when we're texing or talking on the phone. But whenever we're with them, it's like I disappear... as I've always said, "ANG BESTFRIEND, HINDI NASASAPAWAN NG IBANG FRIENDS. KAHIT NA KASAMA NIYO BARKADA NIYO, HINDI MO SIYA HAHAYAANG MALEFT OUT BY STICKING WITH YOUR ******** 'EX'-CRUSH"(Take note, "ex-crush"... YEAH RIGHT AND YOU TOLD ME NA U GOT OVER YOU'RE LAST BESTFRIEND. TELL IT TO SOMEONE MORE GULLIBLE AND STUPID) Damn it... I have to stop...

deam_rose10: he said that?
tin-tin: YES!
deam_rose10: straight on your face?
tin-tin: diba kung kasama mo friends mo malamang...
tin-tin: hinde..
tin-tin: nagparinig sa blog...
tin-tin: diba kung kasama ko kayo, hindi lang naman si cheska pinapansin ko??
tin-tin: diba?
deam_rose10: wen b cnb?
tin-tin: uhm, 2 days ago?
deam_rose10: honestly, it's quite selfish....
tin-tin: DIBA???
tin-tin: arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!
tin-tin: so unfair!
tin-tin: tapos eto pa yung thing...
tin-tin: this is what happend....
tin-tin: feb 12, nahuli ko xia na mai gusto sakin... kasi when i was in SM with my family he was questioning "sigurado ka? baka ibang lalaki yang kasama mo?" and napikon ako kasi lagi nalang siyang nagtatanong ng mga ganung questions...
tin-tin: feb 14, i talked to him... i said thanks for the gifts and everything... i told him na I APPRECIATE HIS FEELINGS FOR ME AND HINDI KO ITATAKWIL YUN TULAD NG GINAWA NG IBA SA KANYA.... tapos i said na i'm happy na we're best friends..... and..... hindi pa talaga pumapsok sa utak ko na maging kami...
BUZZ!!!
tin-tin:
BUZZ!!!
tin-tin: yep??
deam_rose10: sowee bout that..
tin-tin: kk lang..
tin-tin: pero diba naman?
tin-tin: sabi niya BINUSTED KO DAW SIYA...
tin-tin: so he's sulking...
deam_rose10: so what happened?
tin-tin: damn it...
tin-tin: ayun!
tin-tin: hindi niya ako kiausap!
tin-tin: tAPOS BRINADCAST NIYA SA MGA BEDISTA AT SA MGA KAIBIGAN NIYA SA UAP! BWICET!
tin-tin: SO HALOS LAHAT KAMPI SAKANYA... KUNG ANO ANO SINASABI NG MGA FRIENDS NIYA SAKIN... KESYO MASAMA DAW AKO AND SO ON...
tin-tin: TAPOS.... ANG UNFAIR LANG NAMAN KASI...... AKO ANG NASABAHIN KO LANG SI BAGGIE TAPOS IKAW EH!
tin-tin:
tin-tin: naiiyak lang ako..
tin-tin: tapos ng bday niya..
tin-tin: tinext ko siya ng pagkahaba haba..
tin-tin: tapos may regalo pa...
tin-tin: ni hindi man lang nagreply at nagpathankyou...
tin-tin: naiinis na ako...
tin-tin: this is soooooooooooo unfair!
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: did you actually try talking to him personally?
tin-tin: eto pang masaklap..
tin-tin: AYAW NG LOLO MO!
deam_rose10: til now ndi p kayo nag-uusap?
tin-tin:
tin-tin: OO!
tin-tin: tapos diba? napaka onesided?
deam_rose10: gusto niya ata sa kanya lahat ng attention mo e..
deam_rose10: may gusto b yun sayo?
tin-tin: OO NGA!
tin-tin: NAIINIS NA AKO!
tin-tin: TAKE NOTE...
tin-tin: AKO PA ANG NAGTEXT NA MAGBATI NA KAMI!
tin-tin: WBICET!
deam_rose10: it's downright self-centered actually..
tin-tin: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
tin-tin: AND SUPER UNFAIR!
deam_rose10: but y don't you give him time to get things organized?
tin-tin: i did that and it's like how many weeks since that feb incident?
deam_rose10: baka kailangan lang nya pampalipas init ng ulo..
deam_rose10: feb incident?
deam_rose10: nung feb p b to?
tin-tin: opo..
tin-tin: thing is...
tin-tin: BRINADCAST NIYA!
tin-tin: AND I GOT A BUNCH OF PEOPLE BACKSTABING MY ASS!
deam_rose10: akala ko b 2 days ago?
tin-tin: hinde..
deam_rose10: puro bedans?
tin-tin: it's been weeks..
tin-tin: yung two days ago yung post niya..
deam_rose10: oh i c..got it..
deam_rose10: long time n la e..
tin-tin: diba???
deam_rose10: siya na may prob..
tin-tin: that's so freekin unfair!
tin-tin: tapos sabi niya NAG IIMPOSE DAE AKO NG UGALI NIYA??
tin-tin: THE HELL??
deam_rose10: it's not your falut anymore coz you are the one hus making all the effort to try to talk to him..
tin-tin: ALL I SAID WAS STOP BEING HASTY EH! *NA LIGAWA AKO OR SOMTHING*
tin-tin: kasi, i felt uncomfortable..
tin-tin: diba?
tin-tin: ako parin ba mali doon?
tin-tin: kesa malaman niya kung kelan huli na diba?
deam_rose10: honestly though..i know how you treasure your friends but don't pressure yourself on someone who doesn't seem to understand you..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: mama dei......
tin-tin: d ko na talaga alam gagawin ko!
tin-tin: mahal ko yung tao...
tin-tin: in the sense that i love him as i love you guys...
tin-tin: loosing you or cheska or kat or prix or cha?
tin-tin: is HELL FOR ME...
tin-tin: d ko kaya yun..
tin-tin: lalo na't attached ako senyo..
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: do you have feelings for him more than you have now?
tin-tin: no...
deam_rose10: does he?
tin-tin: alam mo yung feeling na pag nagaway kami ni ches or tayo or si kat??? yung gustong gusto ko na makipagbati senyo? ganun..
tin-tin: well... it hink he still has strong feelings for me..
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: that's quite obvious actually..
deam_rose10: very unpredictable for someone with those tantrums..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: mama dei, i don't know what to doooooooooooooooooo
tin-tin: i don't wanna loose my best friend...
tin-tin: well, one of my best friends..
deam_rose10: i'm sure you don't want to..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: naiiyak na ako...
deam_rose10: it's his prob already..
tin-tin: simula nung nabasa ko yun..
tin-tin: kasi nasaktan talaga ako eh...
tin-tin: lam u un?
deam_rose10: y don't you talk to him straightforward?
deam_rose10: i mean, talk some sense into him but don't exactly force him..
tin-tin: i want to punch his face
tin-tin: FEELING KO AKO YUNG BF NIYA AT XIA YUNG GF KO EH!
tin-tin: this is liek degrading my status...
tin-tin: oh my..
deam_rose10: don't punish yourself..
tin-tin: feeling ko i'm a bad friend mama dei eh...
deam_rose10: if i were you i really wouldn't worry too much of this..
deam_rose10: if he loves you, he'll know what to do..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: eh what if he doesn't?
tin-tin: naiiyak na talaga ako...
deam_rose10: just wait for it..
deam_rose10: i think he's mature enough to know that he's acting stupidly towards you..
tin-tin: pano pag d na?
tin-tin:
tin-tin: mama dei............
tin-tin: namiss lalo kita...
tin-tin: and the times i would ruin your beuty sleep...
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: you're not a bad friend..
deam_rose10: iniwan ka na cguro namin kung totoo yun..
deam_rose10: now that's silly..
deam_rose10: you said so yourself he still has feelings for you..
deam_rose10: i'm sure he'll get that through his pigheaded head of his..
tin-tin: mama dei....
tin-tin: and hirap talaga..
deam_rose10: that you are worth it..
tin-tin: tapos...
tin-tin: eto pa..
tin-tin: ako pa lumalabas na mali..
tin-tin: kasi kwinento lang niya ung side niya sa mga friends niya..
tin-tin: pano naman ako?
tin-tin: this is so unfair...
tin-tin: BROADCST yung kanya..
tin-tin: samantala ako, i'm trying to be strong..
deam_rose10: then tell them your side of the stpry..
deam_rose10: if they don't wanna listen that's there prob..
tin-tin: thing is...
tin-tin: i can't ............
tin-tin: from uap yung people there...
tin-tin: and xiempre d ko pwede masabi sa mga ibang bdeista involved..
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: i know you're trying to be strong..
deam_rose10: it's not wrong to cry bout it..
tin-tin: ]i'm keeping it all inside dei...
deam_rose10: but from the way i see it..
tin-tin: baka magburst ako...
tin-tin: ang sakit lang kasi...
deam_rose10: pinahihirapan mo lang sarili mo..
tin-tin: so unfair...
tin-tin: feeling ko nga deserving ako......
tin-tin: wala akong ginawa kung hindi kulitin xia ng kulitin...
deam_rose10: then burst! no one said to kee it bottled up..
deam_rose10: but i'm glad that you're pouring it to me..
deam_rose10: don't force him..
tin-tin: mama dei...
deam_rose10: i know you alloted every time possible just to talk to him..
tin-tin: d ko na kasi kaya..
deam_rose10: iba iba ang tao..
tin-tin: parang..
deam_rose10: kahit ready ka na baka ndi pa xa ready..
tin-tin: ako pa babae, ako pa nagiinitiate ng usapan para makipagbati..
tin-tin: uhm, baliktad..
tin-tin: ako hindi ready, xia ang may gusto...
tin-tin:
tin-tin: panu na yun?
deam_rose10: give him more time..
deam_rose10: if you really want your friendship to return you'll wait..
deam_rose10: kahit mahirap..
deam_rose10: i know you..
deam_rose10: you can handle this..
tin-tin: really???
tin-tin: mama dei, feeling ko d ko na kaya..
tin-tin: iba to...
tin-tin: alam mo yung mas girly version ni cheska???
tin-tin: huh???
deam_rose10: don't be scared to face it especially those who talk behind your back..
tin-tin: literal na mas GIRL-Y..
tin-tin: mama dei..
tin-tin: masakit kasi,...
tin-tin: specially those people who talk at my back..
tin-tin: they even know a thing...
tin-tin: *don't
deam_rose10: then don't give them the privilege of knocking you til you're out cold..
deam_rose10: don't listen to them..
tin-tin: masakit kasi yung sinasabi nila...
deam_rose10: pag pinatulan mo mas lalala..
tin-tin: napaka one sided...
tin-tin: as in...
tin-tin: i get alot of that sa school.
tin-tin: and just when you thought that one of yuor best friend is your refuge..
tin-tin: you realaize that he turns you down and even bites your ass..
deam_rose10: don't let him see that you've been affected dearly even if inside he knows it..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: mama dei..........
deam_rose10: don't let him see that he's the only one you need when you have probs..
tin-tin: read this...
deam_rose10: he may use that against you later..
tin-tin: http://www.seraphicloner.blogspot.com/
tin-tin: seeeeeeeee?
deam_rose10: ouch..
tin-tin: diba naman mama dei???
deam_rose10: but something caiyght my attention though....
tin-tin: what?
deam_rose10: his ten bday resolutions....
tin-tin: why??
deam_rose10: he wrote them yesterday right?
tin-tin: what about them?
tin-tin: yep??
tin-tin: bday niya last monday...
deam_rose10: read them...
tin-tin: yep..
tin-tin: what's so weird about that?
deam_rose10: you can use them.........
tin-tin: huh?
deam_rose10: as i said..you can USE them...
deam_rose10: against him..
deam_rose10: don't take it the wrong way okay?
tin-tin: huh???
tin-tin: d ko get mama dei..
deam_rose10: 6, 5, 4, and 1..
tin-tin: yeah, what about it?
deam_rose10: resolutions are meant to change someone right?
tin-tin: yep...
tin-tin: and?
deam_rose10: so HEL him....
tin-tin: *help??
tin-tin: how?
deam_rose10: **HELP**
tin-tin: HOW?
tin-tin: eh desisyon niya yun!
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: d mo talaga getz?
tin-tin: hinde..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: naguguluhan na ako..
deam_rose10: try talking to him again..
deam_rose10: selfishness...this is what he's doing..to you..
deam_rose10: hastiness..he's suspending any means of trying to talk to you..
tin-tin: o_O?
deam_rose10: numbnes...he's so stricken i do believe he doesn't even know what to say to you..
tin-tin: paki add
tin-tin: really???
tin-tin: paki accept mama dei..
tin-tin: piktures...
tin-tin:
tin-tin: and?
deam_rose10: self-pity...from the time you guys fought til now..what does he think he's doing?
deam_rose10: nagpaparinig yun!
tin-tin: huh???
tin-tin: nagpaparinig??
tin-tin: eh hello!!!!!
tin-tin: KINAKAUSAP KO SIYA AT TINEtext kahit d siya nagrereply!!
tin-tin: ANO AKO SANTA SANTITA NIYA?
tin-tin: ala lang...mga gift,,
tin-tin: LD
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: don't you get it?
tin-tin: huh?
tin-tin: hinde mama dei..
deam_rose10: i do believe he's trying to make a move..
deam_rose10: ei..malabo pics mo..
tin-tin: malinaw sa akin...
tin-tin: make a move??
tin-tin: pano?
tin-tin: magiging truks siya at magiging gohan ako???
tin-tin: para mag fusion kami at maging GOTENKS??
tin-tin:
tin-tin: dei, wala akong makita...
tin-tin: bakit puro pixels ito??
deam_rose10: whatever tin!
tin-tin: huh???
deam_rose10: pics ko?
tin-tin: hindi nga mama dei?
tin-tin: d ko get?
tin-tin: ano yun?
deam_rose10: labo pics mo sakin e..
tin-tin: kunwari naruto ako sasuke siya?
tin-tin: gagamitin ko ang chakra ng lobo tapos gagamitin niya yung sharingan niya?
tin-tin: tapos maglalaban kami ng kunai?
tin-tin: o_O?
deam_rose10: use his resolutions against him..
tin-tin: tapos mag chi chidori siya at gagawa ako ng ball ng chakra na turo ni jiraia?
deam_rose10: when you talk to him use his resolutions as a mean to get him to take you seriously..
deam_rose10: got it?
tin-tin: yep..
tin-tin: isa pa?
tin-tin: teka..
tin-tin: remove ko muna ung photos tapos magrereport ako ng abuse..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: yan...
tin-tin: teka
tin-tin: yan..?
tin-tin: nakita mo na?
deam_rose10: gago k talaga!
tin-tin: ]
deam_rose10: labo p rin e..
tin-tin: yan?
tin-tin: malinaw na?
tin-tin: ang laki niyan.
deam_rose10: maliit kita malaki ndi..
tin-tin: maliit kita?huh?
tin-tin: yan?
deam_rose10: may maliit ako dito from you kita ko but sobrang liit e..
deam_rose10: malaki malabo sobra..
tin-tin: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
tin-tin: ako i add mo sa conference...
tin-tin: ng photo ah?
tin-tin: yan, mauna ka magbigay ng photo sakin...
tin-tin: testing..
deam_rose10: kita n?
tin-tin: hinde...
tin-tin: malabo yung pixels...
tin-tin: why???
deam_rose10: sayang..
tin-tin: why?
deam_rose10: ganda ko p naman..hehe..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: wahahahahaha...
tin-tin: who say's i'm the only one whose vain???
deam_rose10: look at my friendster pix nlnang..
deam_rose10: dami ko new pix from my camping trip..
deam_rose10: ganyan talaga g may ipapakita..lhehe..
tin-tin: yeah..
tin-tin: sayang...
tin-tin: T_T...
tin-tin: okies...
tin-tin:
tin-tin: hay.....
tin-tin: thanks mama dei...
tin-tin: i feel much better...............
tin-tin: woooooooh'
deam_rose10: glad to be of assistance to you..
deam_rose10: now check my pix den tell me kung cute xa o ndi!
deam_rose10: friendster ha..
tin-tin: sino?
deam_rose10: primary photo..
tin-tin: wait..
tin-tin: OMG!!!
tin-tin: MEMOIRS!!!
tin-tin: I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LOVE THAT MOVIE!
tin-tin: hmmmmmmmm...
tin-tin: sino naman yan......
tin-tin: i smell somthing fishy..
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: me too!!!!!!!!!!!
deam_rose10: seen the pic?
deam_rose10: sama utak mo ha..
tin-tin: yep...
tin-tin:
tin-tin: huh??
deam_rose10: cadet officer ko yan..
tin-tin: woshoooooooooooooooooooooo
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: 2nd year vet med..
tin-tin: yeah right...
tin-tin: and i'm the quees of engalnd.
deam_rose10: what?!? i don't think i said something sarcastic did i?
deam_rose10: your highness?!
deam_rose10:
tin-tin: hahahahaahah!!!
tin-tin: yeeeeeeeeekie..
tin-tin:
tin-tin: cadet officer ah???
tin-tin: he is...
tin-tin: SEMI-KAL-BO..
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: oo bakit? got a prob with that?
deam_rose10:
deam_rose10: gago k talaga ha..
tin-tin: <-----------------------duh, mama dei.... you're sooooooooo defensive...
tin-tin: i smell somthing fisher...
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: something wrong with being AROT?
tin-tin: AROT????
tin-tin: ??
tin-tin: waaaaaaahahahah!
deam_rose10: parang ndi k bicolano ah!
tin-tin: baka ANGAS?
tin-tin: semi kalbo sa unahan?
tin-tin:
deam_rose10: cra AROT!
deam_rose10: angas k dyan?
deam_rose10: ah basta..cute b o ndi?!?
tin-tin: angas pag kalbo sa unahan eh...
tin-tin: arot???
tin-tin: baka HAROT??? o PAROT??
tin-tin:
tin-tin: hmmmmmmm...
deam_rose10: gaga!!!!!!!!!!!!!
deam_rose10: cute b o ndi?!?
tin-tin:
tin-tin: aaaaaaaaah...
tin-tin: hmmm...
tin-tin: cute...
tin-tin: moreno...
deam_rose10: ang sama mo talaga!!!!!!!!!
tin-tin: pwede na!
tin-tin: *claps..*
deam_rose10: galing k b pumili?
deam_rose10: pero may gf n e..
tin-tin: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.................
tin-tin: okies lang yan...



ah love mama dei... thanks for understanding.... true... i shouldn't punish myself... kaya ko toh! aja... ^_~ yeah! miss yah!!! muh! *hugs*




anyhooooooooooo...... this was a long day!!!^_^... i'm happy.... yeah!^_^... wanna rest...... so tired.... ^_^.....

song: have a piece of this P.O.T
mood:lalalalala...look at the rainbows and the flowers and the sun shining down on me! ^_^ i'm gonna make ice cream!

"Farewell to my friends, thought I'd leave you all behind me. My time is runnin and I'm about to lose my mind again. Now and then, I tremble all over but I will carry the load upon my shoulder, but I know this would all be over as soon as I open my eyes. Is it loneliness? maybe emptiness? maybe melancholy. Have a piece of this. Now I see the sunlight shining through there's no reason to be blue, but, now I know I'm going down, I look all around me and laugh like a clown/no I won't frown. Can anybody help me when I'm down? and anybody since I'm just a clown, but now I know love will stick around coz I've been lost and found. "


yipee!!! i'm gonna make ice cream today!!! ^_^... i'm so happy.....i'm gonna make ice cream for the very first time... to bad it's our experiment..... T_T....huhuhuhu... this is bad... any way, i'm so happy that PE was over... i got cindy and ingrid mad at me for i don't know... having a low grade? geeez, it's not my freekin fault.... you don't even listen to what i have to say! you didn't even have the time, you just went away..... T_T...... this is so annying... it's like i have a "hate-justine-campaign" and their slogan would be..."cause we JUST HATE YOU...." nyahahahahahahaha!!! ^_^ funny.... but if hurts..... seeing a bunch of people screwing your ass, biting your back, saying things to you.... man... it's so hard being me.....

i wish i could exchange places with kim sam soon you know? i hate me... i really hate me..... nobody understands me..... well except a few loyal friends.... God, i really miss them so much..... ^_^... i remembered...cheska is 18 on april 24!!! yipeeeee!!! i haven't got a slightest idea where she's gonna celebrate her bday....and mama dei is gonna have her debut!!! on june 10!!!^_^ yipee!!! it's gonna be in a bar... yehey!!! this is just great! all of us are turning 18!!! yipeee!!! and i'm gonna have my bday... at a... pool!!! wohoooooooooo!!! imagine all that pizza.... yehey! *yeah rchi.... pizza..... ^_^* it's much better than wearing a dress and being stuck at aboring hotel!!! you can even push people at the pool!!! *just wait mommy.... walang tulong kay daddy ah??? madaya talaga kayo....T_T....* i remembered the times that mommy, daddy, kat, prix, ches, mama dei, kuya jonathan kaizen are swimming in the pool... i really miss you guys!!! T_T.... waaaaaaaa..... miss them!!! :D i made a list on whose invited at my bday... and i think 25 are invited? yeah!!!^_^..... wopidooooo!!! i'm so excited..... anyhooo....

aside debuts, hai... i'm so tired.... good thing nstp's over....^_^.... major relief.... oops... i hear "FIRST BLOOD"... when can i play dotA again??? oooooooooh..... i'm so excited!!! yehey!!! dotA!!! liek it's my ultimate therapy..... i forget everything and focus more on how do i kill??? yeah!!! smiting asses are fun!!! yeah!!!

anyway, i feel like a night in shinnig armor.... hahahahaha.... now i understand what guys feel...hirap pala maging lalaki....T_T, but if you take a good look at girl's side.. it's hard too you know? 90%of women a re too emotionally attached and i belong to the 10% who doesn't care... ahehehehehehe.....

my feelings are as cool as the summer breeze...... waiting... waiting... waiting.... and when it comes at my window i stand.... i embrace it with open arms....a nd plunge into the waters..... i smile.... i look up.... and say to myself... "being cursed is not that bad"....


i'm sleeping for years..... i was cursed to wait..... wait for him to come and kiss me.... then i woke up at my bed of satin and silk... i realized that for centuries, men have came... leaving flowers at my bed.... surprisingly, even though men kiss me... i still won't wake up..... now that i'm awake... i find him no where... so i decided to sleep again....... and when he comes... i will put my hands at my stomach, close my eyes really hard.....just like princesses do in fairy tales..... and wait for him to come kiss a frog.....


i miss jeffie bear..... lookie... i miss my huggie escapades with jeffie.... awwww.... and we'e like pinagbiyak na siyopao.... miss yah too jeffie weffie.... T_T....


oooh... jemes gave me a message.... i miss you too jemes.... sobra.....alot of things happend...miss yah badly.... i doooooooooooo......T_T...... when are you going back to manila??? i really hope to see yah soon.......


miss yah big time....

that's it JESSIE!!! you are going OVERBOARD!!! like YOU HAVEN'T EVEN HEARD MY SIDE!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SO ANNOYING... AND TAKE NOTE, NAGPAPARINIG KA PA SA BLOGS??? THIS IS SO UNFAIR!!! BAKIT BA HINDI MO GINAWA KAY ***** OR KAY **** OR KAY ***??? WHAT THE HELL??? TAPOS AKO LANG YUNG GINANITO MO??? THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO UNFAIR!!!!! BAKIT NGA BA GANYAN KA??? LOOK, IF I HAVE TO GET MY GOD FORSAKEN ASS TO UA&P JUST TO PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE PARA MATAUHAN KA, GAGAWIN KO YUN..... DAMN IT JESSIE... *I SOUND LIKE A GUY...:D I THINK I GOT THIS FROM MIGS.... T_T....* THIS IS JUST SO UNFAIR! I TALKED TO WHAT? BAGGIE ONLY? SAMANTALANG IKAW... ISANG BUONG HILERA NG BABAE, LALAKI.....??? GOD....... THAT'S LIKE HOW MANY PEOPLE SAYING I'M THE GOD FORSAKEN WITCH???



AKO NALANG YUNG MALI SA POINT OF VIEW NILA..... LAGI NAMAN EH.... FOR LIFE NA PASAWAY NALANG AKO, FOR LIFE NA CONTRABIDA.... NAIINIS LANG AKO KASI SINABI MO LANG YUNG SARILI MONG SIDE.... SANA BAGO MO BRINOADCAST, KINAUSAP MO MUNA AKO AT PARA NAGKALIWANAGAN TAYO, PERO HINDE EH!!! NI THANKYOU MAN LANG KASI BINATI KITA! AT HANGGANG NGAYON EH NAALALA KO PA BDAY MO! RESEARCH PA NGA AKO NG KA BDAY MO... SI SHAQ PALA EH KA BDAY MO... HE'S LIKE 34 YEARS OLD NA.... ANYHOO....EH ANO NAKAYA GAGAWIN KO SA LETTER NA PINAGHIRAPAN KO ISUKSUK SA BOTE AT NILAGYAN NG KUNG ANO ANO HUH??? OR SA ELMO NA DAPAT IBIBIGAY KO SAYO HUH??? WALA NA.... ITATAGO KO NLANG SAKIN YUN, BAKA SAKALI BALIKAN NG BEST FREIND KO YUN... *I.E. YUNG KASAMA KO NAKIKIPAGSABAWAN AT NAGLALARO NG DOTA....*ANO BA NAMANG KLASE YAN JESSIE! BROAD CAST BA ITO??? FEELING KO I'M LIKE KIYANA SA PINOY BIG BROTHER... THINGS IS ROBIN PADILLA DID'NT COME TO SAY THANKYOU SA PAGSALABA NIYA SA KAPATID NIYANG SI RUSTOM!!! >_<.... ARGH....



FINAL WORDS: YOU'RE SO UNFAIR........

*ay, grabe..... big brother na ito!!!:D gogogo!!! ^_^... ahehehehehehe....*

song: narda kamikazee

mood: yehey.... boom boom baby...



"Awit na nananawaganBaka sakaling napakikingganPag ibig na palaisipanSa kanta na lang idaraan... Nag-aabang sa langit..Sa mga ulap sumisilip..Sa likod ng mga tala..Kahit sulyap lang darna....!!!"

yehey! i'm done with my S.A. how nice!!! yehey! all i need to do is finish my NSTP (jazz dance) and poof! i become coco crunch!!!

i'm planning to spend my wednesday SLEEPING.... i feel addicted to my bed!^_^ so nice... so any way....


hai..... can't think of anything else aside from sleeping... oh yeah.... i've been a photographer of the theresian mag for a year... seriously, i miss taking pictures.... so here are some of the pictures i took....








darkness in light














tingin sa taas












paa














sunset in malate












i really love taking pictures...... i believe that... in every picture that i take... is a memory... stolen from time...hai, really can't think of anything else to do...


oh yeah.... i think my dad wants me to stick my whinning ass to feu...yep.... so.... i'm planning to crash my battery exams so i can transfer.... there's no other way in my dad's supreme hell.... other.. than... redefining his royal rules... yes..... ^_^... kasi naman... he doesn' want me to transfer.... so i abide by his rules and shove my ass up at that god-forsaken- school... poor me.... T_T...



and in a few week..bye bye smile... hello METAL..... T_T..... hai.... i'm going to be like bettly la fea or kim sam soon... T_T... this is really cool.....

song: do you want my love? coco lee

mood: somebody save me

"Can you handle my desires Can you tell me what I'm thinking baby Can you read my mind Baby will you go the extra mile Will you vow to hold me tight 'Til we're right
Turn me on and on and on and on... "




i was reading "by the river piedra i sat down and wept"... paolo cuelho is so COOL...


question: when does love hurt?

answer: when yo begin to ask.


love is a trap. you only see the light in it, not the other phase.


i realized that the "Other" still exist in me.... i decided to shun her alon time ago, back to her pit of darkness....



history 101:

"Other" and the "Believer"

she existed when i have loved for the first time. when i have loved a guy from SBC. we we're almost near there but, i really can't take it. loosing him was hell.... HELL. i cried yes. i ate ALOT. and he was the ultimate source of my depression. so i became FAT. i decided loving one guy is enough. guys are stupid and they make girls cry. i CUT my hair SHORT. that was my sign that I WILL NEVER LOVE ANOTHER MAN IN MY LIFE.

okay, that was a short retalliation neh? so there.... my heart was asleep for 3 years when another guy came. a guy that came one fine summer morning, held my hand and embraced the "I" in me. me, being fat. me hating guys. me who stopped believing. the moment that i have learned to love him, she began to exist again. texting him 24/7.... i felt that i was possesive in him...i felt that he forgot about me....until months have past, my heart begn to sank once more....... he did forget....hurt, scarred, pained for the second time.. i really can't stand the the feeling of him gone.... again.... "Other" existed and told me the rule of being a strong...

1. i am a woman. i am equal to man.
2. no man shall have the right to hurt me, for i am strong.
3. he hurts me but i will show no weakness.
4. i will never bow down to him, he will bow down to me. let him show his love and shun him away.
5. no guy can handle my desires.
6. i am a strong girl, i deserve better.... better that what guys want.

so much for being a authoritarian..... she was with me...... for 2 years the "believer" didn't give up. she was still competent with the "other". she believed that he will come back after all those years and when that time comes, i am sure that i will give the real "me". i decided to NEVER CUT MY HAIR for when my hair is short, that is the time i have forgotten about him..... i kept my weight in tuck and put myself on the serious mode....--keeping myself bussy and forgetting about him.

not until another guy came in my life. one summer morning of nothingness became such extraordinary joy. i felt that "he" was in "him". then "other" told me..... "why are you having fun with him? don't tell me you are falling for him..." then "believer" tells me "he reminds me so much of...... what i have lost......... i feel happy....." my connections with him seems patent...... i'm happy...... my feelings for him faded, as each day i saw him i began to understand that i like him because he was like a dear friend of mine, and a brother to me.... someone who would understand and somone who will be there for me despite the problems that we have... not someone who i should love......

"other" slepy inside of me, "beliver" is on the zenith of my soul..... being my control and my refuge......now i understand everything....

enough about being melancholic, i need to focus more on.......being a frog for the 2nd time around.

so, back to being the princess.... yes. i am... and a week frm now, i'm gonna be A FROG!!! why??? okay, imagine me... having ALOT of pieces of METAL IN MT TEETH!!??? oh come on!! that will be torture!!! when i become a frog, will somebody kiss me??? this is just tragic......

song: beer by itchy worms
mood: tired..... alone.... plain nothingness... some one spin around me...

"Ibuhos na ang beer Sa aking lalamunan Upang malunod na ang Puso kong nahihirapan Bawat patak anong sarap Ano ba talagang mas gusto ko, Ang beer na ito O ang pag-ibig mo?"

i'm so freekin tired! i'm so goint to have another B.F.... yeah, another B.F. yet another "bitch fit".... i'm so freeking pissed for the nth time.. i'm just so tired!

well it started yesterday when i took the what call "the forbidden cup." it's what i call to my dad's coffee.... monodor...... holy cow, that coffee from switzerland??? JUST GAVE ME A LEAP OF CAFFEIN!!! so i had caffein rush for the whole night forcing me to study chem and S.A.

so here's the catch.. i felt jumpy.... and super hyper... i was skipping happily in dad's office when i saw a box wrapped in plastic. then i asked my dad..

tin: dad, what's in this plastic? pae pak wa??? PENGE!!!*^^,*

dad: wag anak...

tin: dad ano po to? takes the plastic off... *sees chinese writing*

dad: INTSEK YAN ANAK WAG YAN...

tin: o_O??? huh??? *slowly reads the label*

P**** E******* PILLS

tin: WHAT THE HELL!??? *starts to laugh out loud and runs outside the office*

i was wondering.... why DID MY DAD HAVE THOSE??? o_O??? huh??? maybe it's one of his chinese clients whose giving him those weirdo stuff for patent... but seriously??? i was so high *with the coffee* that i laughed all night..... *^^,* wahahahahahahaha!!!

early morning, i decided..... i want to go to another school.... i'm not going to shift courses.... i'll still go for nursing. but in an anotgher school.... my mom and i talked about it this morning. two schools...

1. Trinity
2. San Beda

for nursing.... i'm going to ready my transcripts by the end of this sem....... wow.......

"the fool just went out to tell me that....... possibilities are infinte..."

so much for that pills..... i'm so tired... i can't sleep... plus my body is really tired from all the jazz dancing...... i really want to rest....