so after drinking my dad's OH IM PERKY coffee...

i was so happy and prepared for school... so i studied the brain... and stuff.. (for anat.)

then my prof was late giving us sermons (the usual...)


but wait....


mam: OKAY!!! SANA NAGINATAY KAYO!!! (lalalalalalala..) SO WE'RE GOING TO HAVE OUR EXPERIMENT WITH THE BRAIN! ETO! UTAK NA PUSA! TIGANAN NIYO! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

so aiza said...


aiza: OOOOOY! AMIN YUNG UTAK NA MAY MATA!!!
me: SYET!!! NAM&^%^$E^%$@#^%@!!!UTAK!!! d ko kaya!!!
gwen: JUSTINE!!! UTAK!!! (puts paper with brain infront of me)
me: BWENA GRACIA ILAYO MO SA AKIN YANNNNNNNNNNN!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!


i was nearly barfing... and crying.. for CRYING OUT LOUD! UTAK NA PUSA! so kamusta naman diba?


okay lang tignan... masukasuka ako.. BUT NO!!! PINAGULONG NILA ANG UTAK NG KAWAWANG PUSA SA TABLE KO!!! ^%#@^#%@&$ nman!!! syet!!!

so i was crying.... poor cat... poor me...


interview..

tsek: as if being lim is not enough plus that chinese na manliligaw.
tin: yeah.... and? (you ARE HARSH TSEK)
tsek: AND THEY HAVE TO ROLL THE FREEKING BRAIN INFRONT OF ME!
tin: so... tsek, how's the smell?
tsek: LANGYANG FORMALIN YAN! NAG FORMALIN NGA WALA NAMANG BISA! SYET! AMOY PATAY NA ********!!!!
tin: ooh... so what did you eat after that?
tsek: i JUST LOST MY APETITE THANK YOU!!!....
tin: ooooh. so.... can you handle nursing?
tsek: I'M GONNA DISECT A CAT. ARE YOU CRAZY?
tin: aaaah. so... good luck?
tsek: i need it badly.


so kamusta pilipinas? i'm complaining about my anatomy! crap!!! T_T badoodles naman!



and oh!!! i wanna watch "SUKOB" balita sa akin ng mga friends ko maganda raw?


and... I CAN DO STAR FLOAT..^_^ yey...


i'm so tired..... super...... wow. pao sana pala pinahiram ko sayo yuung wilson ko. di ka pa nagspend masyado. ichan... huhuhuhuhuhuhu... clip for you?^_^

i can't believe this... grace.... wow.... thanks a lot honey....:* love yah... muah...


interview>>>


tsek: wow, prelims are done. how do you feel?
tin: i feel great!!!^_^ i'm assisting grace 24/7 and shifting my family name... that's all..^_^ hahaha!!!
tsek: so you mean.. enjoy ka sa bagong family name mo? what is it?
tin: LIM.
tsek: o sh*t men...not that?
tin: yeah... ampupu.... TIN LIM? commo'n...
tsek: uh-huh.... so how does it feel being mrs. lim without mr. lim?
tin: uhm.... i don't know? because i don't know mr. lim.(?)
tsek: but how? tapos naging mrs. lim ka kaagad. ano yun?
tin: uhm... ewan...kinda complicated. kasi... uhm...
tsek: yeah right tin. some explanation. you suck.
tin: i need to be mrs. lim for A LOT OF DAYS or as soon as i end my 1st sem with grace.
tsek: oooow... so..... since malakas mangarap si grace... let's see... you are? TIN C. LIM and she'll be? GRACE L. LO and after that? VAN LO.... the hell?
tin: yeah. hindi kami mapaghiwalay... plus i have to find the real LIM para magkatabi na kami ni mercedes noh? and i'm gonna find one in a hundred years.... *LOL*
tsek: seriously? a hundred years?
tin: no! silly... try... uhm.. i dunno...
tsek: wow. lakas mo mangarap tin...
tin: uhm... hinde? just for the sake of grace... she's soooo desperate to make me LIM. common...T_T... and she blames me for not being LIM. huhuhuhuhuhu.
tsek: ooooow. that's your explanation? okay.... so for one whole sem... you are?
tin: TIN C. LIM....
tsek: okie dokies... i'm gonna remember that....


i soooooooooooooo can not believe this.... LIIIIIIIM? and i'm sitting beside LIM and LO. huhuhu. dynamic trio? men oh men.. tsk tsk tsk.... endure being a lim.... just for a sem i guess... mercedes... YOU OWE ME A LOT...^_^

hmm... aside for being lim... uhm... we're going to leave our house in valenzuela (;() and we're goin to live at.... secret.... it's a much bigger house! i'm so excited..^_^ plus i get to share a room with my sister. how cool!? hahaha.^_^

hmm... what else? still no plans for my birthday. oh! i just hate this. my CRUSH is in GLOBE. i text him alright... BUT HINDI NAMAN NAGREREPLY! ano kaya yun!? ay. i think kilala niya kung sino siya. (yeah right tin) what makes me so pissed is that he DOESN'T REPLY THAT MUCH! argh! (question: KAYO BA NI??? EH BAKIT KA GANYAN? and besides he doesn't have any obligation to text you...HINDI KAYO NOH?) okay. taht's reality. it slapped me that hard. huhuhu. anyhooo... wa.

a guy... told me he still loves me up to now.. and i told him i have a BOYFRIEND (you are such a heat breaking mu'tha f**** b****....) i told him...

me: i'm sorry... i have a boy friend.
him: sabi ko na nga ba tin. so musta na kayo?
me: HE'S FINE! he's studying in la salle.
him: oow? sige na magaaral ka na.
me: why? and oh!!! he's SO BUSY HE'S NOT TXTING pero we talk. definitely.( yuck, mangarap ka pa. onti nalang itatapon na kita.)
him: ayoko na i'm out.
me: ei... why?
him: i love you ok? and talking to you like this? hai. bye bye see yah at..... ********
me: ano ba? can we just talk as friends?
him: ..... bye.
me: i'm still gonna see you at ***** and when i get there. sasapakin kita.
him: alam mo ang cute mo parin. thanks. miss na kita.
me: me too... (you liar..TIN!)

wow.... you are such an ass tin. :) i know how to play my cards right. men who are OBSESSED just like (******) with me? are people who want me TO KEEP FOR THEMSELVES. it's ok. i understand.. but they don't WANT TO ACCEPT ANYTHING ELSE... they WOULDN'T HEAR ME... that's why....



i....


miss....


my.....




MALLOW BEAR.... i wish we can still talk.... i miss yah!;( sana he an come at my birthday.

i tried to fight the urge of seeing you...

i guess... my heart is foolish enough to go through this and my body (just as same) went on with it.

i don't know what to expect.

as i take a single step, my heart pounds just as fast...

i searched for you.... hoping that seeing me would make you happy...

but... when the moment came... i was twice as schocked to see you.

your eyes still glimmers up close. your lips are just as red as those candies we ate. your arms are still as big as ever...

you told me a secret.... you draw me near... held my backand whispered..

"i have a surprise for you..."

i was so happy to hear it from you... finally after all those times.... maybe you know what i exactly felt for you!

you told me to turn back.... and close my eyes.... and count..

1....

2...

3...

"surpise!!!"

a girl was standing behind my back...

you wraped your arms around her and started kissing her head in front of me...

rain.... then started to pour....

thunder clapped across the sky...

the wind danced across the trees...

i wanted to cry.... my heart felt like it was slowly being ripped apart...

i turned back..

you asked me "what's wrong? tell me!"

and all i can say is...."tell you what? thank you for the surpirse? i'm happy... for you... and her..."

my heart silently wishes that i was the girl at his side... wishing that iw as the girl he's kissing...






okay... so our subject was swimming and it's nearly raining. i was so cold and i sat on the rope by the pool... all of a sudden, cj went infront of me and said...

"tin... it's sooooo cold."

"hi retard!!! yeah it's super cold... argh... i hate this. magkakasakit ata ako nito."

"grabe! LOOK! TIN!! MY ******* are freezing!"

"YUCK!!! YOU ARE SUCH A RETARD!!!"

"hinde no!!! look at it!!! TOUCH IT!!! COME ON JUST TOUCH IT!"

"YUUUUUUUUUUCK!!! pwede ba lumayo ka sa akin you spawn of satan!!! YUUUUUUUUCK!!! GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACIA!!! SI DE CHAVEZ!!! SI DE CHAVEZ!!! YUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!"

"aww men... just touch it..."

"CJ.. LUMAYO KA SA AKIN BAGO KITA MASAPAK!!! ISA!!!! MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!!!"

"ok ok!!! paul! *a gay friend of his*, look at my *******... touch it... come on.. touch it.."

paul: "pwede ba cj.... wag mo ako landiin...ang kadiri mo talaga... ang M mo."

me: "hindi lang ma M... MA-L pa.."

cj: "what does ma-M mean?"

paul: "MAYABANG"

cj: "what does ma L mean?"

me: "MALIBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOG!!! yuck de chaves... you are are the most pervert foreign retarded freek i've ever met!!!"

and to think A LOT of GIRLS and MEN (har har.. no exception) have a HUGE CRUSH ON HIM??? EEEEEEEEEEEW.... yuck ka talaga cj.... retard ka talaga.... hahaha. kidding. cj is my happy and not so happy thought of the day. this stinks...

i'm one of the most stupid people you'll ever meet.... i can't believe this....

so okay... under "dakilang BADJULA's" influence... i have a new number... so for the people who texts me on my smart... hindi na po ako smart.... I'M on GLOBE... and my number is.... 0926******* har har.:)

hai. it's so nice to be connected with globe. my block mates are sending me porno messages and stuff... hahaha..
and announcements too... from our el presidente... ^_^

anyhoo... hai... its been weeks since we last talked on the phone. since globe ako and he's smart i'm finding it hard to text him and talk to him... grrr... i'm going insane....

buddha(el presidente) and i talked about him.... and what happend he told me...

"tin i felt the same way but you have to move on. you can't be stuck at your past."

"but buddha it's so hard. i'm having fun at my past....i like living in it.... how can i move???"

"it's okei tin.... just try your best okei?"

"thanks buddha... alavyah mehn."

and that's how our conversation went. he's somewhere in mendiola while i'm stuck at morayta... small world? it's sooooooooooo hard... i can't forget his smile... his eyes.... his embrace, his hands... everything about him... argh... can i justr share? i'm describing him for the nth time....this sucks...

me and dei talked about mark...

"tin icipin mo. ang bilis ng ihip ng hangin. first we have crushes and next thing you know we're falling in love.. what could be next?"

"dei... A HUSBANND... KIDS....and then.."

"we're gonna be grand parents!!!"

"yey! mrs sibayan!!!:)"


hahaha. it's sooooooooooooo fast. mehn..... i feel i'm being left behind... crap...:s... i hate this...



some stupid words.... "i love you." men---are the most pathetic beings ever... they make you cry. they make you worry. they make you sad. they lie. they hurt you.... they always talk trash infront of you... (artemis, who once flirted with endemyon under the stars and the moonlit sky.)


for me??? waaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... stop muna jan... i think? hahaha. i need to focus on our retdem etc......


yeah..... some stupid words tin.... say that to yourself..... back at yah...

should i let you know?


i'm so tired. i'm getting thin by the day. i hate this.


before anything else, i would just want to greet CHI... your not yet in the
"ye oldies" club...but YOU ARE SOON GOING TO BE... next year.^_^ san' blow out?
hahaha.:)

ichian, I LOVE THE SONG. can you put songs in my blog??? please?^_^
yey!!!^_^

kudos to addi... for the chung kuo lessons... alavyah mehn. great help...




hmmm. it's been a while. still... we're so close yet so far. our schedule is breaking us apart.
i'm in my physics class he's at mendiola square. i'm at m square he's at class. wtf is wrong with us? i hate this. and we kept talking about what happend to our lives....


"ano nga ba nangyari sa 'tin" i asked him...
and he was silent.

"ikaw tin? sino ba talaga siya?"

i can't tell him.

"huh? sino? yung alin?"

he smiles...

"yung guy na yung talagang... alam mo na..."

i'm holding everything...

"yung guy na minahal mo for years?"

smiles.

"if i tell you it won't be a secret anymore right?"

pouts.

"daya mo tin. sige na.. ano yun?"

*sighs*

"after all those years... wo... wo.. wo.. ai.."

interrupts.

"wait... wait... tin...."

can't hold it.

"wo.. ai.. wo.. wo... sh'r... wo... wo... d ko kaya! ang tagal na nun!"

loud voice...

"parang familiar. does it have anything to do with waiting?"

relieved.

"NO! definitely not!"

laughs.

"tin, i'm taking mandarin this 2nd sem. i'm gonna get you."

heart pounds.

"HUH? NO WAY? IS IT REQUIRED?"

smiles.

"yep. so... pano ba yan?"

stops.

"totoo... yun talaga gusto ko sabihin sayo matagal na..."

"talaga tin? ano kaya yun?..."

"let's not talk about it."

"tampo ka tin?"

"nope... just thinking what would happen if you just knew what i said."

"hehehe. ok lang yan."

"but... FAT CHANCE! kasi YOU WON'T REMEBER IT ANYMORE! HAHA.;)"


*new conversation*

"tin alam mo na yung kay chinkay?"

"yep. what happend?"

"ayun. wala na kami matagal na diba?"

"awww... i'm sorry."

"ok lang yun tin."

"i was looking for you sa friendster asan ka na?"

"i deleted it. selos dito at doon."

"ang babaw naman parang friendster lang. lam mo nga beshy, sa susunod... GET A GIRL NA SUPER UNDERSTANDING and HINDI SELOSO! i'm worried. ok lang talaga yun?"

"hai.... sino kaya pwede?"

"if i was that girl i wouldn't be that jelous. i know you more than ever. alam ko habulin ka ng chicks... and... i understand you so no biggie...IBA PARIN PAG GIRL FRIEND...^_^ hahahahahahaha..."


"hahahaha... pwede! sino kaya? openminded? understanding? caring? loving? someone? hmmm... someone like you?"

"ha?"

"...."

"ha? joke ka ba? pwede ba mangyari sa 'tin yun? patawa ka ba?"

and we both laughed....


tin... you are so STUPID...STUPID...STUPID!T_T i hate this game....

we laughed all day long. i missed him. why is it so hard to tell some one about what you feel? what if he feels the same thing? what if he doesn't? it been quite a while.... my past is chasing after me..... lie after lie... until i'm trapped in my OWN WEB OF LIES.

ayaw ko na.... WO PU YAO!!!..... so... he's in my thoughts again... i'm so confused.