i'm so bumed.... so tired... grabe!....


buti nalang may dumating na stress reliever! :) oist, kilala mo na kung sino ka .... salamat!:) [jessie, kunwari daw hindi daw ikaw yun....]

nung kasama ko siya... nagkaroon ako ng aking munting pangarap...

• makapasok sa banyo ng mga lalaki....[so unfair... gAYS GO IN OUR BATHROOM AND SOME STRAIGHT GUYS TOO!!! UNFAIR!]
• bumili ng para-para machine
• kumain ng cadburry!!! :)
• bumili ng isang buong pizza sa sbarro wahoo!!! :) ang saya!
• mag imbento ng pagkain na "kahit na ano" at ng resto na "kahit saan"
• gumawa ng fool proof butter at cheese popcorn
• wag mapugo sa dotA!!!
• magtulak uli ng kotse
• magkaroon ng NDE

ang saya!!! :) chalamat!.................. oh yeah..... bday ng utol ko....... red horse.... ang tama... ANG LAKAS! and now my body is itching and i feel so..... wa... sabaw.... :) nakita ko uli picture ni ***** at ni *****.... MAGKAMUKHA NGA NAMAN TALAGA SILA! T_T walang gustong maniwala.....

was browsing at friendster a while ago... ouch, ang sakit ng nakita ko.... can't get over... i just can't... but kahit na ganito... kakayanin ko... next topic na kinamusta sa frienster...

can i just share, ***** and ******** are like pinagbiyak na ewan! when i was in ateneo i saw his back i yelled.....

me:" RAAAAA! anooong!???"
nomad: *turns back*
me: *shocked*
nomad: *smiles*
me: *oh noh! he's looking!*
nomad: *startled*
me: *still smiling*
nomad: "hi!"
me: *still shocked*
nomad: "tong-its tayo!? deal mo?*
me: *red and all that* "si...si....si...geeeh..."
nomad: *looks and smiles*
me: *kilig and asks.... oh no *****, kambal mo nasaharapan ko! *** ngalang siya....*
nomad: "ate nikki mas cute sister mo"
achi ko: "ang kapal mo ****, sugarol yang kapatid ko... marami naring nagsabi na magkamuka kami"


*while playing power pusoy*

me: *can't concentrate, still looking at him*
nomad: "tin ikaw na"
me: "huh!? di pa!? ay mali! Ako na pala!" *then stares at him*
nomad: *looks and i look away... keso no!?*
me: *talo, can't concentrate*

me: *new game please!*
nomad: *looks then smiles*
me: *wants to shout... SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE**************! ANG CUTE MO LAMANG! WAG KA NG NGUMITI PLEASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSE LANG!!!!!!!!! super red*

after playing..........we went home....
and i was like...

"****************************************!!!!!!!!!!!" and my sister stares and says..."wala pang gf yan" and i go like, "WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!"

me:"freekie ate kat, he look like my **** ****!"
ate kat:"oo nga noh! **** AND *****"
me:"oh noooooooooooooooooh!"

haist.... i saw him last wednesday, goodness.... cuteness as usual. i saw addi, kat and dondee too! grabe! i'm so over HIM na...... yoko na talaga... :D

ate sushi, sashimi and a confused yakisoba that tastes like spaghetti...[todo mistaken identity.....]


hahahahaha.......... grabe! can i just share, i miss ramch.... [special mention pa], JESSIE! [omg, got loads of stuff to tell you!..],r-chi [fy ko pati ka kornihan mo], pinggoy, jiggy, rjadz, mum and dad....mama dei, ches [beshy ko], uhm.... and alot of people! T_T.....

if i have a time machine, i want to go back.... really... i miss them so much!

gosh..... bakit ba ang cute mo!??

argh!!!! >_< like i have to hide every ENGLISH CLASS... plus YOU DANCE REALLY GOOD..... nakakahiya na talaga.....

if i can tell you how much.... just how much.... your smile means!? then maybe i can be given the title of "put- a- bag- in- your- head- so- you -won't -ever- be- recogized" award...

all i can do is to stand behind the room and look at you from a distance...

see the depths of your eyes
see your smile that made me down
see that back fade away.

pwede bang ganito tayo!?
me: uhm...
you: bakit?
me: kasi...
you: kasi!?
me: CRUSH KITA! :)
you: ako RIN!
me: *keso ang lakas mangarap* JOKE YUN!
you: JOKE DIN YUN!

*ang labo no!???*

pagtalikod niya...

me: crush talaga kita... *^^,*

at ako'y isang batang malakas mangarap... palibhasa... nbsp... wakokokoko! aside that.... d nga.... nung kukunin na ni gracie yung number nia..... wa!!!T_T bakit ako tumakbo sa STAIRS!?? ano ba naman yan tin!>_<..... tapos ang PULA!? ay nako nuk nuk.... tsk tsk tsk..... may theme song na nga ako sa kanya eh!? ready sing....

"hanggang, hanggang kailan mapapansin ang aking lihim na kahit anong gawing lambing d mo parin pansin..... :)" can relate! :)

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! ****** ang cute mo lamang..... *^^* thanks God!:) oh yeah... pls help me dance good in the SEAG practice......

random thoughts:

nothing si happening in my life right now exept a coulple of things.... [wow ate ang labo nun..]

• i'm preisdent: the duty!??? ang "utusan" ng bayan T_T
• i've been reading alot lately..... [weird]
• i'm so tired....

super boring...... i've been helping jako lately...i've heard from jako that motot was on the "tampo/badtrip" mood.

can i just say i love sir apolinio. so far he's the BEST teacher i've ever had! [next would be sir palitec] super! i like to imagine what it would be like if i studied at admu!?? :) super heaven on hell..... hhehehehe..... my sis said though there are alot of cool profs in th ateneo.... but there are alot of terrors too..... if all profs could be like sir apolinio.... astig sana! :)

bday na ni daddy dondee... happy bday!!!!!! sa 18! :) yeekie! 19 na xia! :)

i feel odd... parang my life is one big cock and bull story... nothing intresting is happening to me! :( haaaaaaay...... i want to go to the mountains and SHOUT!!! although i'm not thinking about it too much...it just occured to me.... i miss "that person"..... hey! you! "that person!" charing, miss na kita.... :) haaay..... ang buhay ay isang malaking "HAAAAY"..... feeling ko kulang pa dalawang baga ko... sige.... magbabaon nalang ako sa libro at sa mabangong amoy ng xerox para makakalimot....

suki na kami ni ingrid sa net zone dahil kay aster...... hay naku.... T_T.....

binullshit ko yung report namin sa pol sci.... now i know the advantage of being in the debate team! :) your forced to say bull infront of people! yehey! appicable din pala siya sa pang bubullshit ng teacher!?? :) yehey! :) feling ko we're getting good results..... aproximately 92.... :)

jc... bek bek ka.....d naman xia gwapo.... :) oohohohoho........

me jay and ingrid's next stop would be chung kuo FAN! :) yehey! can't wait! :)

Didn't mean to hurt you badly
Don't think that I am fooling around with you
So sorry for the time you've wasted on me
So sorry for the things that you went through
But I know that the problem's within me
You're so nice but your love don't deserve me
Or maybe I'm just so scared to fall in love again


I can still remember the days
So many times, I've been hurt
So much trust I put on a relationship
So much suffering I got and the pain still remain
Know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away


CHORUS
Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away


Now, I know I wasn't thinking before
That's why I'm always ending up with Mr. Wrong
Learning from the past, don't wanna make a mistake
You could be Mr. Right or could be a fake
You know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

i love sir apolino by the way!!!:) hahahahaha! super astig talaga niya.... :) micro messo macro.... idol talaga si sir!!!!!!!!! :) soc anthro ROCKS!

i miss:

• ramch- ung pangtrtrip..... sino idol mo!?? :)
• rchi- ung student ko pati ung fy ko.... korni mo... :(
• raffy- ung jacket ko po
• jiggy- him and his multi colored paper with numbers on it
• pinggoy- hunting ng gwapo sa sc.... ;( huhuhuhuhu......
• rjadz- i miss u...
• addi- o_O!? hehehehe joke lang!:)
• francis- th ka.....

lahat ng mga addic sa dotA.... :( i also miss

• mommy- nuk nuk na pala ako!?? :)
• daddy- advanced happy bday!
• cheska- uuy..... :) elow dude! eco na kami namimiss ko si sir Z!???
• prix- miss yah
• dea- WAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!:(

i miss them so much!!!!!!!!! :( hala na......

i would like tos ay kudos to the following people

• JC- HOY CHI BAI BEI loka ka... salamat sa libro! :)
• ingrid- thanks talaa for the support
• jason- for the badminton escapdes at sa pagpugo mo sa counter at battle realms sa akin...
• marge- sa pagubos ng battery ko

oh! PRO nga pala ako!!! :) i might dance pala sa SEA GAMES.... how i wish diba!?? im gonna dance for yfc ateneo.... huhuhuhu... hectic sched... i wish i could... :)

jako is helping me in my chem...... super thank you!!!!!!:)....... thanks for always being there for me!!!:) salamat sa kanta........ i really appreciate it!!!:) kudos for everything!!!:)

hahahaha!!! :) i thought i was going to be killed in my chemistry class cuz i was like 10 miniutes late! i found out that prof madrid was cheking COR's.... i was safe!!! hahahahah!:D .... JC gave me the alchemist.... oh i fell inlove with the prologue..... on how he ended narcissus story...... and it goes like this....




ahahahahahaha.............. now i'm doing my economics.... sir bogo nasaan na po kayo!??? T_T.... haaaaaaaaaaayy.... :)


kudos to JC for the book!!!! hsie hsie...... also to jako for being there for the nth time! to dan... pare ang kapal ng tapal ng face mo.... to hanna... yeah! so happy for you!:) mommy ko i miss you..... :)

the day i went back to hell started last monday!!! argh!!! i'm back at school again... when i got in then i realize.... "uh-oh..." i don't want to be in school again.

i checked the abience of my room.... it's quite okay actually... but it lacked somthing.. somthing i really can't live without... it's BOYS!!! i just realized that i only have 10 guy blockmates and 5!! i reapeat 5! are actually GAY!!! see!??? kamusta ka namn diba!?? no i'm just kidding about the part where there is actually "necessity" for boys! nyahahahahaha!!! :D but the GAY part is so like 100%TRUE!!! hahahaha!



i made friends! i'm so happy! well my 1st friend was marge. she's from olonggapo!!! i can not believe na kinakandirit lang niya ang SUBIC!!! God, i want to go in there!!! *dream place..."

next one was ingrid.... i love her so much!! oh and jason too... they both came from St. Mary's College.... sweet!... we ate at uncle ton-ton's... GRABE! HEAVEN! todo buhay baboy na toh!!! l

ingrid ate sisig

jay ate calamares

i ate pot roast plus jay's "big-half" rice!



how happy!.... and this is so kewl.... THEY RAELLY LOOK ALIKE!!! i thought they were cousins or somthing... ang check it out..... jay looks like pooh!!!!!!!!!!!!! plus when you invert his family name.... it's still the same.... see?!?? MACAM=MACAM..... ahahahaha!, ang saya!!!:D

these past few days i always see aster.... i MEAN REALLY..... she's courting ingrid.. i thought he was his brother or something.... jay and me always see him in the compshop. 1st one is on "unizone" next one was on "netzone" o, kamusta ka nama diba!? addic!??

i've been so close kay jako these past few days!!! i would like to thank him soooooooooooooooooo much for cheering me up!.... nakakahiya na talaga..... yey! [okay lang yan jako.... kaya mo yan!:D mas maaga naman kaming nagstart kesa sa inyo!:D]

so far, deadz..[nice... deadz na... ] cuz i have to MEMORIZE THE CATIONS [the hell!?] PLUS THEIR OXIDATION NUMBERS! [kamusta ka naman diba!?] plus we have a test tomorrow! goodluck nalang.....]

oh before i go, i would like to say kudos to rhiz.... grabe, kuya nag kulit mo...

silence in solistice


i'm here on my own
reviewing my own psyche
delliuting my self in awe
constantly torchured by my own self ambiguity...


confused and unarmed
i venture in my own self defience
like a knight without
his valiant sword and sheild
indeed i cross my sanity

if my ambiguity holds me
draws me into mere silence
tranquility beseeches me
opportunity grabbed, solistice bound.



i'm so tired... i've been like bumming aruond the house. drowning my self ro harrp potter 5 and 6..... i feel like i have acheived the psyche of THE TOTAL DORK!!! >_< i'm so bored...i watch WOWOWEE... call me ludacris but that show is totally brain draining........i've concluded *during the desperate times that i can't watch anything except noontime shows and tv home shopping networks* that the best boobtubes are found in this shows! let me show you....

*H-host
*C1: contestant1
*C2: contestant2

h: anong planet ang pinakamalapit sa araw!?
c1: VENUS!???? *veehnuss!?*
h: xia ung kapangalan ng sikat na DRUG STORE!
c2: MERKYURI DRUGSTORE!!!!

*ay diyos ko...planet, hindi planetang my drugstore!*

h: ano ang tagalog ng "thumb"
c1: HINLILIIT!???

*ate naman...... hinliliit!? hindi ba HINLALAKI!???*

h: kung ang ATENEO ay "BLUE" EAGLES, ano naman ang LASALLE!? sila ang LA SALLE "*****" ARCHERS! ano ang kulay ng LA SALLE!?
c1: YELLOW!??
c2: REEEEEED!!!

*ok..... ang lasalle pala ay may bahid na ng ue at ust....LOL....kelan pa angla salle naging red acrchers at yellow archers!? guhlay!*


i found out na... ANG SARAP MANG OKRAY.... kidding aside, it's so nice to watch and somehow be entertained when watching these noontine shows or what my mom calls it *definietly a sign of prejudice* "kababawan"...



okay, change topic..... i found myself so emty this past few days...... maybe because i'm worrying to much about him. i'm so scarred that i really want to cry. he's not necessariy at the merge of break down. but comne on! you can really ee it. well, i feel he 's not the kind of guy that i hang around anymore. he definitely changed. i've been praying constantly for his happiness. oh what am i to do!? seeing him so lonely makes me feel so useless. then it came across me that i'll let him do what he likes. if he wants to be olbliterated for the moment... go..... it's his choice..... haaaaay...... T_T


a peice of advice........ never ever judge God. things happen for a reason. u are good. :D u just haven't find that person yet. don't rush. i think it will fall down on you in the moment you least expect it.


that's it....... i can't think of anything else at the moment..... :D except..... drowning my self in harry potter!:D