i write today to tell you how my life changed ever since i started anatomy.

GOD am i a sinner?

okay....

i was really FREEKED out on our lesson.---the reproductive system. well it was pseudo okay when we discuss it with all girls in the class when i was in high school... but NOW with BOYS???

argh! i hate this! i really had a hard time knowing the male rep. parts! seriously! it won't come into my head! is it my fault that i was schooled in an ALL GIRLS PRIVATE SCHOOL who doesn't discuss anything about THE MALE KIND?

there's no male in our school except the manong and some sirs that teach... and that's where all of the girls on our school would droooooooooool... (i.e. sir zeraspe eeew, can i just share? sir viloria, etc...)

yuuuuuuuuuuuuck.. i hate this. i can't concentrate! it's like everytime i see it I LAUGH OUT LOUD!!! and when the lecture came? i was laughing all day! i really can't imagine myself memorizing those things! and actually disccussing it... with MEN! ooooooooooh crap...
brye, van and grace my beloved friends... would make "banat" or talk about my crush's...you knooooooooooooow...

okay... they had those sizes? senorita what ever they call it... plus they have those measurements that i don't seem to understand. why? becuause i was SCREAMING! i don't know... i can't understand!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuuhu.....


i don't know if i'm going to be in the state of perfect bliss (did i just say that??? *okay... arrector pilli rises up*) or laugh it all out loud, or be freeked in it....

i'm sooooooooooooo messed up. and when our finals for lab came? BLANKO AKO SA MALE REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM... (-15 points... damn it. )


any hoo... enough about that topic.

you know what? i really don't understand this... WHY.. ALL OF PEOPLE... did i like you huh? it really amazes me that i can't stand a minute just staring at you... you throw me to oblivion touchiung the hands of paradox... saved by the silence' embrace. kissed by nothingness...

see? i really really like you! and i'm really tired of running... i want to see you everyday. it makes me crazy everytime they call your name. argh! i want my heart to stop beating or my hands shake...

can you do that? i guess you can't. i know you know... but... why can't i have the courage to tell you huh? i really hate it....

i started dressing up for you! you just don't know the trouble to find the perfect hair, face, dress for you! argh! hindi mo parin pansin? i want to cry.... the sem will end and i'm not a 100% sure if i can still see you.... i miss you soooooooooooooo bad...