i tried to fight the urge of seeing you...

i guess... my heart is foolish enough to go through this and my body (just as same) went on with it.

i don't know what to expect.

as i take a single step, my heart pounds just as fast...

i searched for you.... hoping that seeing me would make you happy...

but... when the moment came... i was twice as schocked to see you.

your eyes still glimmers up close. your lips are just as red as those candies we ate. your arms are still as big as ever...

you told me a secret.... you draw me near... held my backand whispered..

"i have a surprise for you..."

i was so happy to hear it from you... finally after all those times.... maybe you know what i exactly felt for you!

you told me to turn back.... and close my eyes.... and count..

1....

2...

3...

"surpise!!!"

a girl was standing behind my back...

you wraped your arms around her and started kissing her head in front of me...

rain.... then started to pour....

thunder clapped across the sky...

the wind danced across the trees...

i wanted to cry.... my heart felt like it was slowly being ripped apart...

i turned back..

you asked me "what's wrong? tell me!"

and all i can say is...."tell you what? thank you for the surpirse? i'm happy... for you... and her..."

my heart silently wishes that i was the girl at his side... wishing that iw as the girl he's kissing...






okay... so our subject was swimming and it's nearly raining. i was so cold and i sat on the rope by the pool... all of a sudden, cj went infront of me and said...

"tin... it's sooooo cold."

"hi retard!!! yeah it's super cold... argh... i hate this. magkakasakit ata ako nito."

"grabe! LOOK! TIN!! MY ******* are freezing!"

"YUCK!!! YOU ARE SUCH A RETARD!!!"

"hinde no!!! look at it!!! TOUCH IT!!! COME ON JUST TOUCH IT!"

"YUUUUUUUUUUCK!!! pwede ba lumayo ka sa akin you spawn of satan!!! YUUUUUUUUCK!!! GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACIA!!! SI DE CHAVEZ!!! SI DE CHAVEZ!!! YUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!"

"aww men... just touch it..."

"CJ.. LUMAYO KA SA AKIN BAGO KITA MASAPAK!!! ISA!!!! MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!!!"

"ok ok!!! paul! *a gay friend of his*, look at my *******... touch it... come on.. touch it.."

paul: "pwede ba cj.... wag mo ako landiin...ang kadiri mo talaga... ang M mo."

me: "hindi lang ma M... MA-L pa.."

cj: "what does ma-M mean?"

paul: "MAYABANG"

cj: "what does ma L mean?"

me: "MALIBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOG!!! yuck de chaves... you are are the most pervert foreign retarded freek i've ever met!!!"

and to think A LOT of GIRLS and MEN (har har.. no exception) have a HUGE CRUSH ON HIM??? EEEEEEEEEEEW.... yuck ka talaga cj.... retard ka talaga.... hahaha. kidding. cj is my happy and not so happy thought of the day. this stinks...