should i let you know?


i'm so tired. i'm getting thin by the day. i hate this.


before anything else, i would just want to greet CHI... your not yet in the
"ye oldies" club...but YOU ARE SOON GOING TO BE... next year.^_^ san' blow out?
hahaha.:)

ichian, I LOVE THE SONG. can you put songs in my blog??? please?^_^
yey!!!^_^

kudos to addi... for the chung kuo lessons... alavyah mehn. great help...




hmmm. it's been a while. still... we're so close yet so far. our schedule is breaking us apart.
i'm in my physics class he's at mendiola square. i'm at m square he's at class. wtf is wrong with us? i hate this. and we kept talking about what happend to our lives....


"ano nga ba nangyari sa 'tin" i asked him...
and he was silent.

"ikaw tin? sino ba talaga siya?"

i can't tell him.

"huh? sino? yung alin?"

he smiles...

"yung guy na yung talagang... alam mo na..."

i'm holding everything...

"yung guy na minahal mo for years?"

smiles.

"if i tell you it won't be a secret anymore right?"

pouts.

"daya mo tin. sige na.. ano yun?"

*sighs*

"after all those years... wo... wo.. wo.. ai.."

interrupts.

"wait... wait... tin...."

can't hold it.

"wo.. ai.. wo.. wo... sh'r... wo... wo... d ko kaya! ang tagal na nun!"

loud voice...

"parang familiar. does it have anything to do with waiting?"

relieved.

"NO! definitely not!"

laughs.

"tin, i'm taking mandarin this 2nd sem. i'm gonna get you."

heart pounds.

"HUH? NO WAY? IS IT REQUIRED?"

smiles.

"yep. so... pano ba yan?"

stops.

"totoo... yun talaga gusto ko sabihin sayo matagal na..."

"talaga tin? ano kaya yun?..."

"let's not talk about it."

"tampo ka tin?"

"nope... just thinking what would happen if you just knew what i said."

"hehehe. ok lang yan."

"but... FAT CHANCE! kasi YOU WON'T REMEBER IT ANYMORE! HAHA.;)"


*new conversation*

"tin alam mo na yung kay chinkay?"

"yep. what happend?"

"ayun. wala na kami matagal na diba?"

"awww... i'm sorry."

"ok lang yun tin."

"i was looking for you sa friendster asan ka na?"

"i deleted it. selos dito at doon."

"ang babaw naman parang friendster lang. lam mo nga beshy, sa susunod... GET A GIRL NA SUPER UNDERSTANDING and HINDI SELOSO! i'm worried. ok lang talaga yun?"

"hai.... sino kaya pwede?"

"if i was that girl i wouldn't be that jelous. i know you more than ever. alam ko habulin ka ng chicks... and... i understand you so no biggie...IBA PARIN PAG GIRL FRIEND...^_^ hahahahahahaha..."


"hahahaha... pwede! sino kaya? openminded? understanding? caring? loving? someone? hmmm... someone like you?"

"ha?"

"...."

"ha? joke ka ba? pwede ba mangyari sa 'tin yun? patawa ka ba?"

and we both laughed....


tin... you are so STUPID...STUPID...STUPID!T_T i hate this game....

we laughed all day long. i missed him. why is it so hard to tell some one about what you feel? what if he feels the same thing? what if he doesn't? it been quite a while.... my past is chasing after me..... lie after lie... until i'm trapped in my OWN WEB OF LIES.

ayaw ko na.... WO PU YAO!!!..... so... he's in my thoughts again... i'm so confused.