yesterday was dei's birthday... happy bday mama dei! awabyu talaga...:) i enjoyed seeing my old friends back... well bohoo for me... i woke up i knocked myseld on the door...*ouch masakit ang mata/ulo ko...* and i banged my foot sa ladder ng double deck... *awww...:(*... when i took of my clothes today... i realized that...
- my chest is red
- my stomach is red
- my back is pseudo red
- my legs are kinda red...
- ALL OF THEM ARE FREEKING ITCHY!!!
i think i had acohol? shox... kuya bartender gave me FREE DRINKS! he said "sagot na namin yan... hahahah.." nie waiters at moomba ah? i will miss them too... well for being the best jackasses that made my head swirl...0_O?
anyhoo... waaaaaaaaaaa!!! dei!!! chowee talaga....T_T chowee... tui pu chi!!! TUI PU CHI!!!T_T chowee talaga ah?:D but i had fun... oooooooooooy... comander mark ah? har har....he's looking at you playing the piano... wahahahaha...:) naks d mo kasi pinapansin... yun. i really had a fun time..:D
hmm.. time for somthing serious... i dream of dancing.... with 5 people....
My memory of him, brings the pain The despair of being alone again...
one.... i was dancing out love begging for forgivness...
In one flash we were up in the air But he lost his grip and went astray
two... i was dancing out of love that was impossible like of stars that an't be reached
His images ran here in my mind Expecting again that he'll be mine
three... i was dancing out of love that was never meant to be said...
We met again my feelings were still intact But he went away, and turned his back
four... i was dancing out of love that was so innocent... silence was enough to speak unuttered words...
Insanity only relieves the pain Left me like a fool soaked in the rain
five???... i was dancing out of love with complete joy... yet filled with so muh bitterness in my heart....
Is this the love i seek through ages The fantasy i've been longing for He told me it would be for the best To stay away and leave his mess
5 men.... 5 times hurt... i dunno... this sucks.. i wanted to cry... ano pa kaya kung sa BDAY ko sila lahat magpuntahan? i feel my heart would sink... my heart would stop beating... all of them looking at me... each with their own thoughts i can't read... i still have to smile at them right? and maybe stop being foolish and instead of drawing back tears i should be smiling really big?
i just hate this..... i feel i've been running away with the truth ever since he left me flying in the skies...and ever since that day.... i feel i've been turning out people who are really good from the inside.....
i'm so scared of being hurt again... so scared of crying... so scared of being a fool blinded by his smile, embrace, whisper....
ayoko na talaga... i feel running is the simple answer... yet as run..... things become... more complicated... i don't know who would i choose.... i don't know what to do anymore....
i thought they forgot.... but they come back when i was...living in silence... living in smiles....
i want "him" to make me smile... all the time...afraid of crying again i suppose...
i want "him" to make me secure...
i want "him" to be strong
i want "him" to be always be there for me...
i want "him" to love my innosence...
i want "him" to want me just for being "me".... someone just for me...
A light shone down on me like Falling leaves...
maybe like sweet spring... i can feel the warmth of the rays from the sun again... feel the breeze caressing my face... feel the leaves brushing through my skin... feel the urge of wanting to live again....
