"every now and then, when i'm all alone, i'd been wish'in you would call me on the telephone. say you want me, but you never did. i feel like such a fool."


i got home early.... i just remembered it's prixie's birth day... 18th birthday..... so before telling my dram for the day, i would just like to say... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!! muah! ^_^ miss yah!!! i'm really looking forward to loas banos.... yeah!!!




so anyway, back to the subject...... i saw the phone on my lolo's desk..... my heart was beating so much.... and i ask myself why???




tin: bakit ka kinakabahan na kausapin siya??? eh number lang naman ni baggie kukunin mo sa kanya...
me: eh hindi lang naman yun tin eh... nakakakaba lang kasi baka ayaw ka pang kausapin ng tao...
tin: eh, it's worth a shot. what's there to loose?




so without any hesitation, i got the phone... dialed his number and poof. his maid tells me that he's not yet back. i assume that he's off to galleria or mega mall or some mall hanging out with his friends.... where he is... uhm... well.... happy.... it really hurts when your best friend forgets about you... but still, my heart kepy on punding. i felt my heart sink. what the hell is wrong with me? so i decided to dial another number.... before i do so, i have 4 numbers on my head.... that's 4 LAND LINE NUMBERS! ^_^... hahahaha.. one's my dad's, 2nd was my pards, third was ramch (because what i know is he has this 36 number thing in his number) and.... my past... best friend who's still my best friend... gelo.




so i dialed ramch, hoping i could get baggie's number.... i had a lot of attepts and guess what?? ALL WRONG NUMBERS!!! and when i finally got ramch's number.... by gosh by golly.... HE DOESN'T KNOW BAGGIE's NUMBER!!! i soooooooooooooooooooooo would like to kill ramch on a 28!!!>_<) so anyway..... ramch was as boring as usual... and as "hangin" as ever... i had no body else to talk to... i can't call my dad? pards is not at his home. ramch is boring. and my last resort? it's... "him"......

so i dialed his number, my heart beating so fast. i want to burst in tears at the same time smile. and so i did......

tin: hello good evening po, pwede po ba kay gelo?

him: sino po sila?

tin: uhm, si tin po. him: wala siya eh!

tin: WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEh!!! ROBERT IKAW YAN EH!!!

him: TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN!!!!

tin: ROBERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRT!!!

me/him: WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! KAMUSTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

and we were laughing..... he told me his story... that partially pained my heart and my ass... it hurts so much.... well as his best friend he told me his plans and well, what happen to him, chinkay and jp.

it's so screwed up.... but, as my heart beat faster, i want to cry while talking to him and at the same time halting myself not to........... i rembered everything that happen in the past 3 years...... i did..... all in one flash....... just when i thought that all flash's are out.... as i leave, i was so happy...... extatic.... i forgot the worried feeling with jessie and baggie.... i did.... i don't know what miracle robert did.... but...... it made me bounce back higher...... made me much more happy..............

just when i thought i wouldn't see my constant sushine..... i was the one who waited for ages....i did not forget.... my heart lay asleep.... frozen. and know, i'm afraid he is back. i am strong. i will not fall.... just like i did before....