my young final requiem---required sa soc anthro eh!?
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Last Will
Song: Panaginip
By: Southborder
Time: 4:32 A.M.
Date: January 26, 2006
I can’t believe I’m about to die. I lay across the floor. Feeling uneasy; thinking about a lot of things. I always like to die. Believe me I really do. I thought that dying would free me from the world’s corruption, pain, anguish, and lament. But it seems that I took the easy route without thinking about the consequences. I’ve always thought that dying is my one way ticket to happiness. Indeed. But the question I post is: “am I ready to give up my life in exchange for freedom and happiness of my soul?”
I kept silent. Tears gushed from my eyes. I realized that I was afraid. Afraid, because I would loose a lot of things: my family, my friends, my earthly belongings. This is too much. I pray for my besmirched soul--- wherever I go, I hope to find peace amidst my trepidation.
Before I leave my last breath, I would like to entrust a few thing to these people. Let’s just say I have made arrangements.
First, for my family; I would like to say that my life was you. You raised me, clothed me and embraced me. You have always accepted me for who I am. Dad, I love you so much. Forgive me if I hurt you and mom with my “almighty-tongue-blazing comments.” Excuse my day to day debates about the political issues and our family issues. To be honest, I really admire you and your comments (even though I make a point, you still don’t erase the hobby of screwing my point down). Mom, thank you for always being there for me. Thanks for criticizing every man that knocks at our doors (even though I really wish that they would rot in h***). For my brothers and sisters, I’m really sorry to screw your day. Well, almost everyday of your lives. Mom, dad, please keep my bed neat. Please put my Incredibles blanket on top of my pillow together with Gelly, Bruno, Teddy, Mr. Quack and his brother, Mr. Coca cola bear also on top of my pillow. Please take good care of my existing bank account. I entrust all my money to you for the future use of my siblings.
To my HS friends, first to TGIS; whose been a part of my four years in high school. I love you guys so much. I would really miss all of our gimmicks, our fun times and our laughs. Kat, please take good care of Nuk-Nuk and also my photo albums that contained all of our high school memories. Cheska, you have always been my best friend ever since 2nd year when all we did was to admire players from AdMU. Please take good care of all my AdMU stuffs from UAAP. (hahahaha! Jologs parin tayo!) Please also take good care all of my letters I kept it in a tin box. Mama Dei, you have always been my second mom ever since 1st year. Please take care of my other memorabilia’s. Prix and Cha thanks for always backing me up not only in dancing but also in my problems. Please take care of my other accessories (yeah prix, including the one you made just for me. Thanks.) And for the last one, Jessie--- you have always been my “great muse”/ “my almighty conscience”. Thank you for always being there for me. I’m going to miss you Pards. Take care. Plese… above all things I value, take good care of Socks, Mang Booogie and Rap Rap. I can’t sleep without Socks and without Mang Boogie and Rap Rap beside me.
I can’t believe the song is about to finish. Just like my life which is about to end. But like this song, I believe that I made melody in everyone’s life. Forgive me for the times that I have failed or the times that I have hurt you. If you only knew that behind my sorrows is a heart that truly regrets. Love you guys. I’m going to miss you.
Song: Panaginip
By: Southborder
Time: 4:32 A.M.
Date: January 26, 2006
I can’t believe I’m about to die. I lay across the floor. Feeling uneasy; thinking about a lot of things. I always like to die. Believe me I really do. I thought that dying would free me from the world’s corruption, pain, anguish, and lament. But it seems that I took the easy route without thinking about the consequences. I’ve always thought that dying is my one way ticket to happiness. Indeed. But the question I post is: “am I ready to give up my life in exchange for freedom and happiness of my soul?”
I kept silent. Tears gushed from my eyes. I realized that I was afraid. Afraid, because I would loose a lot of things: my family, my friends, my earthly belongings. This is too much. I pray for my besmirched soul--- wherever I go, I hope to find peace amidst my trepidation.
Before I leave my last breath, I would like to entrust a few thing to these people. Let’s just say I have made arrangements.
First, for my family; I would like to say that my life was you. You raised me, clothed me and embraced me. You have always accepted me for who I am. Dad, I love you so much. Forgive me if I hurt you and mom with my “almighty-tongue-blazing comments.” Excuse my day to day debates about the political issues and our family issues. To be honest, I really admire you and your comments (even though I make a point, you still don’t erase the hobby of screwing my point down). Mom, thank you for always being there for me. Thanks for criticizing every man that knocks at our doors (even though I really wish that they would rot in h***). For my brothers and sisters, I’m really sorry to screw your day. Well, almost everyday of your lives. Mom, dad, please keep my bed neat. Please put my Incredibles blanket on top of my pillow together with Gelly, Bruno, Teddy, Mr. Quack and his brother, Mr. Coca cola bear also on top of my pillow. Please take good care of my existing bank account. I entrust all my money to you for the future use of my siblings.
To my HS friends, first to TGIS; whose been a part of my four years in high school. I love you guys so much. I would really miss all of our gimmicks, our fun times and our laughs. Kat, please take good care of Nuk-Nuk and also my photo albums that contained all of our high school memories. Cheska, you have always been my best friend ever since 2nd year when all we did was to admire players from AdMU. Please take good care of all my AdMU stuffs from UAAP. (hahahaha! Jologs parin tayo!) Please also take good care all of my letters I kept it in a tin box. Mama Dei, you have always been my second mom ever since 1st year. Please take care of my other memorabilia’s. Prix and Cha thanks for always backing me up not only in dancing but also in my problems. Please take care of my other accessories (yeah prix, including the one you made just for me. Thanks.) And for the last one, Jessie--- you have always been my “great muse”/ “my almighty conscience”. Thank you for always being there for me. I’m going to miss you Pards. Take care. Plese… above all things I value, take good care of Socks, Mang Booogie and Rap Rap. I can’t sleep without Socks and without Mang Boogie and Rap Rap beside me.
I can’t believe the song is about to finish. Just like my life which is about to end. But like this song, I believe that I made melody in everyone’s life. Forgive me for the times that I have failed or the times that I have hurt you. If you only knew that behind my sorrows is a heart that truly regrets. Love you guys. I’m going to miss you.
